Privilege

Looking back at the past 5 years, its been a tough road with times whereby i felt like giving up, but still held on in the end.

Now that its the time of the most intense stress, it is clear that however strong one is, there will always be a breaking point.

Still, as i reflected upon, i remembered that one person who was strong even till the very end, even though it was just a end of year examination in year 2, she still held on and persevered because medicine to heal and help others was what she believed in. In the end, she still sat for the paper despite her condition, but never got to see the results.

Reminds me of how privileged i am, and we are, to be in the position to even sit this exam, and to live the dream that she would have wanted.

Never forget how privileged we are, to even sit for MBBS.

Magic of Kindness

May God Bless This Concert & The Audience

Belinda Carlisle charmed the crowd with renditions of her hits.

The 53-year-old Carlisle was an ideal combination of grace and gusto, beginning with more mellow songs like Circle in the Sand and Vision of You, before raising the tempo and energy rapidly with her smash hits like Leave a Light On and Heaven is a Place on Earth.
Pop duo Bananarama then took to the stage to woo the crowd with "mambo moves" to songs such as I Heard a Rumour and Love in the First Degree.

Call of Life.

Gandhi

If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change. As a man changes his own nature, so does the attitude of the world change towards him. ... We need not wait to see what others do.

Choice

Responsibility

Its time to take charge whenever responsibility falls on the shoulders.

Never really imagined that there would be so much responsibility that i would have to carry in the fields i am involved in. Medicine yes, its a definite. We are long past post acceptance.

Yet in the field of magic, now it means that your life has to be a living testimony to the words you preach and encourage, responsibility is great. Hope all these helps to affirm the values within. And pray that through these different sessions, there will be people that are changed and would go on to live a better life than they currently are.

This is my desire. To honor You. Give me sufficient grace to go through each phase of life.

Residency

I want to acquire competence in the discipline chosen and
acquire it in-depth. I want to hone my intellectual faculties; to ask questions fearlessly and seek answers with persistence; to develop
individuality and conviviality and to learn for collective good. I can achieve these objectives only in the right environment, and in the
program offered for study in your institution. I also believe that I have better chances of updating and scaling up my knowledge in your
facility.

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Support

Frankly i do not know how many ppl come across this page but in any case if you do come across here, i invite you to join me in the prayers i have for our fellow batchmates.

Its been a long 4 years of medical school and now we are entering into the 5th year. Somehow, even when the journey is ending, most of us are far from being fully prepared to step into the full responsibility of a doctor.

We are still one year away from completing the mbbs. Yet, there have been numerous things that have just struck people around me. In just one day of meet up as a batch, somehow i feel the burdens in the different people around me as they share about their troubles, be it with their family, what they themselves are facing right now, or how some other batch mate is involved in a issue that if unresolved, could only prove to be a downhill descend to major breakdown.

Somehow, i cant help but feel myself deeply set in what they feel and experience. Each one of us has pains and things that we have to go through and at some point of time, need help and support from someone else around us. Here i just want to encourage you, if you are reading this, that year 5 isnt just about becoming an excellent SIP student, to get into the residency of your own choice, to complete that research project for the prof to like you, to butter up relationships with high ranking ppl. But it is definitely a time that we have to stand and encourage each other. Take the first step to ask people who are more quiet about their life, share with them your troubles that in turn they can open up to you such that you can help to encourage them with your words. Ultimately, i dont know how many of you feel the same way as i am, but i just cant bear to see past year's event repeat itself, especially on someone who is not just a stranger, but a friend that you have shared joyous times with, spent that extra time to celebrate his or her birthday with.

May i encourage each of us, christian or not, whatever your religion is, to take up the active role of loving kindness to each of our fellow colleagues around us. Whoever they are, wherever they are. You never know when the short amount of time you spend with them instead of reading your textbook may just make the great difference in their perspective of life.

I hope that God will empower each of us with wisdom to handle the different issues that are presented to us, energy that we can be there to help out with the weaker one, capacity that we can be able to tolerate the upcoming challenges and most importantly love, for our fellow colleagues not just in the mere sense of the word, but in actions and thoughts that we can bless them through our actions and words.

Year 5 can only get tougher, yet it is up to us to make a difference, for together, we are strong and can overcome obstacles, no matter how large they are.

Rainbow

at the end of every storm, there is always a rainbow.

And that is always sufficient for one to hold on. :)

Past

Its been a really long time since i last came back here.

Guess its a bit dusty too, and perhaps just as gloomy as the state i am in. Some may call this fate, some call this cause and effect. Yet sometimes things like that just hurt that much. Probably more so this time since more was devoted.

Why? Would this ever pass? I will never know.

And yea it feels like the same thing before, just that it was in a reverse role. And if we take it from that perspective, i know and understand why and how.

Still whats done is done. Past is past. Move on. M5.

Hi

I wonder how often i come back to take a look at this! =)

Pain

Pain is but just a feeling.

Seems like as the frequency increases, the intensity decreases.

Still, pain.

Years have passed...

Looking back.. its really been many years man...

Now some friends in princeton.. some in dubai.. omg i want to go also...
mymy....
Guess things that used to take priority in life have since changed...
i used to really want an ice cream.. and really want a macdonalds, and a kfc for that matter...

now? not really.. maybe ice cream still yes after the level 5 spiciness at sunset grill haha. but i mean.. priorities really shift when we age.. we AGE.. man.

Magic.. how much joy it has brought others i can never fully weigh it out, but i am really glad it has touched the lives of others when they needed it. I am glad to have done my part for community. And how much it has progressed... i used to say i have been doing it for like 5 years.... yet now... its a clear like 8 - 9 years... we age...

Money... used to have this thing with money... not knowing whether one really has enough... but yes.. now... it is definitely enough. god has been really good to me..

Love.. still searching for the perfect one. somehow i have put everything in Your hands to decide already... searching for the Perfect one by ones strength and energy drains out too much... will be using the energy to study patho and do other amazingly crazy things.

Spirit .. yes matured a long way since like 3 years ago.. thanks melody, think i never regretted that day that i converted to following Christ. Guess it was then that i found my inner peace, my true destiny in life, and the potential i can exhibit in me... wow.. just look at me last time and me now... so much changed. so many wonderful changes...

Medicine ... what to say.. year 4 is done very soon and very very soon we will all be running around going ho ho ho ... sounds daunting but god will always be there and i know it will be alright.

Family ... still praying for the same thing since a few years ago.. i wonder what happens down the road... and i wonder if i can stand up strong to it... give me strength and peace.

Friends ... thank god for my friends.. every single one of them. clinical grp, og, cell group, vcf, sec sch friends, jc friend, church friends, other friends ... all friends... i love u guys .... anw recently i nv imagined the cell that i was leading was soo united.. guess i was really really touched to see how we have bonded over the course of 2 years... thank god for it. and thank god for taking it to the next level next year as well. next year probably level 15 sunset grill ... lol..

what else... the list goes on and on.. i did poi.... created lights of hope... did a coin throw... put on a fantastical concert... got a new phone haha playing on it is bad i shld cut that... income this year was good... patho soon... thank god for all the different medical postings too... was really nice to learn and see so much, and thank god for the safety. there's so much that could ve happened but we are all alright!

ah so much said. i guess in life... one thing is certain. To love god whole heartedly, to love others fervently. That said. People only realise the former after they have seen the latter.

Lord i pray in this new year of 2011. rain down rains of transformation and change us that we can be a testimony to your love. thank you once again for all the blessings of 2010.

writing a singapore youth award now... updates how it goes when it goes then.... =))

if you are reading this... u prob shld be studying patho...

Playhouse

One of the most awesome events of the whole year. Must admit that it really touched me to see so many of our batch mates come together in unity sharing a common vision. With unity comes power =)

To all who helped out and slogged so much for the success on sat, kudos to you guys! the sets were awesome, the acting was perfect, the script was well written, play was excellently directed. Amazing work =) couldnt have asked for a better play to watch!

Thank God we won too heh!

Bugs

Think this is one of the places i always come back when i have something on my mind..

Haiz... sometimes things just don't happen the way it should happen.... what can man do?
Kind of sad actually... you din turn up when you should have... just saw my sd card blow up with all the photos inside =( char i lost all your egg videos leh ... so sad... you need to crack more eggs for me liao...

ahh... i know not what tm holds... paeds is so tiring... case writeups due next week... haiz... the only thing to really relish is cmdf dinner this sat...

perhaps i should have let you go 3 weeks ago. no expectations no disappointment.

word of the month: let go, let God.

and yes i do have something to be happy and thankful about, think a iphone 4 is coming! =D and ummm yea thank God for all the doors that are open in front of me right now, ntu, vietnamese community, and let that which has to come, just come to pass. will be ready =)

i still like kids when they dun cry... thank god for settling electives =D

Promise

Seems like its been so long since i last visited this place. Studies, shows, friends, meetings... what have we? Life is full of all these.

Anw i guess i only come here when i really have something to talk about that is meaningful to me.

I thought about it. The thing that you did that touched me most was the way you offered your help so willingly and just being able to treat people for who they are, or perhaps regardless of who they are. Interesting as well that you looked so much like another person that i know and hanged out with.

Seem like things may change in this year of 2010. Few more weeks till oct ends! We shall see what happens then! =)

On a side note, kindness has never been so touching before, touched my life, change my life, created a good memory. Now we spread that to others, touch their lives, change them, create memories worth reminiscing about, for them.

You send me out to touch the sky. I will.

Live Life to The Max

What you can see, what you can do goes beyond what it is right now...

Open your eyes, open your heart, open your mind to see and understand the things unseen.

Delve into the world of supernatural and experience what life really offers.

Let my hands create what it hasn't created, let my life experience what it has never experienced.

Live the life you've always wanted. =)

Prayer

My prayer for them is that they would be able to live a healthy life, one that is fulfilling enough that they can say that i am happy. That they will be able to live without that financial worry drowning their thoughts. Let their eyes see my world, understand my joy, feel my love. Everytime you shed a tear, i shed a tear with you.

The world will only be a better place only if we see what it is now, and use our heart to change it.

Touch

Touch people, touch lives, touch hearts... touch of christ.

To Live

To live a life to benefit others. To live a life to create change in society.

When medicine and magic comes together = ....

Passion

All great things birth from one word - passion. What makes it different now is that you already have all you need to take the big step out. To have been carried so far up is not to be dropped down, but only to be lifted higher.

What charity magic concerts used to do, can now go beyond and do so much more, in ways that we do not even fathom, but we have faith.

Empathy

Was i glad that i did not turn sarcastic or flare up at that remark....

If i had been through what you have been through, i guess i probably would be even more down than what you are now...

Sometimes stories turn into real life situations..

Praying for you. And its ok if you want to be mean to me, strict, etc, its perfectly alright. I understand what you are going through and probably thats why you demand such high standards... I would too if i were you.

Feeling

Understood. I know what you mean.

Loving People

To have an overwhelming acceptance for everybody, seeing each person as a 10 upon 10.
To listen more to others as paying attention shows a person worth.
To have empathy and look beneath what other people are going through and listen to their heart.
To be real and transparent. Sometimes, oneself's need is a gift to somebody else.
To have encompassing forgiveness, to release the right to get back at others.
To give encouragement and loving confrontation.

New Phone

=)!

Your Qn

Why? Good qn, high standards, and a reluctance to give up other priorities.

Why? Cos when you are young, its the time to make or break your destiny.

Why? Cos there's always someone out there who will eventually be the one.

Or maybe, its just that i haven chosen to let go fully...

I don't even understand fully...

=)

A good word makes the heart glad. A good movie makes the mind happy =)

Letting Go

Holding on to so many things is just so tiring sometimes...

Questions like "what if...?" , "then how?", "was what i did right?", "so what will you think?"

So many things... so tired. It just doesnt feel right to carry so much on ones shoulders...

Lifting all in your hands... and just guide my path however the outcome. I will flow with you...

Tired from compilation, from running around, from peoples expectations, from commitments, from a lot... or just actually... venting some tiredness frustration... i dun noe... i can just crash and sleep...

Silent Commitment

To know exactly where we are headed in this walk of medicine. To know exactly who we want to model ourselves after. To know exactly how we want to change society, heal hearts, and touch lives.

To have clean hands, and a pure heart, to touch the needy, ignite hope for the lost, heal the sick, revive the unconcious, comfort to the worried... Your prayer was powerful.

Let every patient we come across have a constant prayer too.