Week of Voices

By the time i come online... i realise i always forgot most of the stuff i wanted to remember. how ironic is that.

Anyway.. quick look at the week. loads of incidents that point to the world being imperfect... or at least, somewhat...

Taking the shuttle bus back to the mrt on friday was something that just showed what nurses truly are. Their personality deep down. I think a world without them would be a world without compassionate care. There was this young nurse gave up her seat when she saw an elderly man walking further to the rear of the bus. That was nice... perhaps something that you can call common even in the singapore today. BUT then, there was a blind lady on the bus itself as well. She din fit the conventional blind lady who wears pitch black sunglasses... hers was clear. And no one noticed... or at least... i din notice. UNTIL this young nurse, how nice of her, to signal and gesture that this lady was blind.. i was like standing in between and i din notice... perhaps the phone conversation was a bit too distracting. Anyway, she reached out and held on to the blind lady throughout the whole bus ride. Even though it was only a 5 min ride. it was nice to see such encouragement and support that a person can offer to someone who was in need. (of course i also held on once i saw she carried a walking stick... that kind that is for tapping the ground)

I was touched by the love she gave. =) anyway story cut short... we alighted and the nurse disappeared so i escorted the blind lady to the bustop and onto bus 9 which she wanted to board. Her image fades away into the horizon as i see her disappear as the bus speeds off. But the act of kindness never dissipates =)

There was as many as 15 ppl on the bus... yet only one reached out... moral of story? imperfection is common... but only in imperfection do we find perfect compassion.

Today... Sometimes i wonder if prayer really works... if without action. During service... what you call it? Slaining? Someone screamed... and she was like just 3 rows behind me.. somewhat for the first time so close... at a range of less than 4m perpendicular distance. Yes she screamed really loudly... and it was continuous. Of course her cg mates went to her aid... but yea i saw ppl stretching out their hands and praying for her... even the person who was like just in front of her... it didnt stop.

Sort of a strange feeling. I know how to stop it. I know what i could do. I felt compelled. I should do something... Did I? Yea i reached over and wanted to cross over but realised i couldnt even see her.. she was like on the ground. Somehow i just knew whatever that i would say would just bring her back within 30seconds.. yet i din.. she continued her screaming.. though it was drained away by the increasing crescendo of the music... perhaps thats why they play it so loudly... that we can just mask all these away...

Why didnt i go over all the way? I don't know. Was I not equipped? With knowledge? With experience? With anointing? I was. Why din I go over? Weird...

And you know what. it just so happened that we wanted to sit elsewhere at first but i decided it was fate that we sat at the lao di fang... with us having to strain our eyes... perhaps its for me to witness this?

God moves in great ways. How do we ever comprehend.

Thereafter... i felt a really really weird feeling. Like omg. Why is it that love from Him causes this kind of sign to be elicited? Is it really love of the holy spirit for this to happen? I want to know the answer. Why.

Somehow... as we sang the lyrics "This is our God" It just made me ponder whether that was really the work of him. Or was it something else? Slaining... looks interesting. always a joy to watch. But ever wondered if it was something else?

Somehow... i felt compelled to know the answer. Feels like i was insufficient... insufficient to even fully comprehend my full purpose for his kingdom. Was it in this area? This area such that He brought me to med as well... somehow.... i felt this equation impress upon me...

Summation of
Magic ie Amazing Feats
Mentalism ie Mind Reading
Medicine ie Healing
Moving in the Holy Spirit ie Anointing

Equates to that of a big M word...
Messiah
defined as the following 1. Supernatural 2. Healer 3. Anointed 4. Not surpassing that of Jesus

It just felt like i could do greater things for Him after seeing what the person doing service today did. Sounds like a logical way to derive the destiny after seeing how everything adds up. Only time could tell...