Loss

I remember sitting there biting away at the burger on my hands... Somehow it just did not taste the way should be like. It was bland and tasteless. Very. Wonder how I actually finished that piece of food..

I remember still sitting there waiting the bus to come. Vehicles pass me by ... Fleeting through the corner of my eye. Somehow something just feels different. You know it. Don't you?

Its as though a part within you has been let go of... You feel somewhat lighter... Yet at the same time the inner structure is disturbed. Affected? Somewhat. I no longer fully comprehend how the body works... Emotions beyond words... No word truly describes what one feels...

I guess that's what happens when someone that you love and care about get hit by something so sudden and abrupt. Interestingly it breaks you down faster than incidents that hit you directly. Strange isnt it?

Is this what it means to live for others? That what other people around you feel would affect you more so than what you feel yourself? For you have let loose of what you should be feeling.. for yourself? Feels strange that one could feel exactly what others around you are going through... it felt like a hidden form of telepathy... as though you live through their lives within the fraction of a second... and come to a final state where you can comprehend.... in fact, more than comprehend... actually feeling what they felt... simultaneously. Strange.

I don't comprehend. Still... Why should it be like so?