How i could concur so much with what you felt after what i saw today... A sudden case of epilepsy right around the area when i was practising... I went there... they apparently looked quite proficient in handling the epilepsy... as though they have handled it so many times before. Me? Never? I know cyanosis.... increase venous return... check pulse... airways patent... what else? Do you know what to do? Not really...
No one taught... is that a good excuse? I am still young.... would that suffice?
I stood there.... kind of helpless... kind of wanting to help but not knowing what is beneficial. It lasted for around 10 minutes which seemed to whiz by somehow.. maybe cos of my tiredness... She became okay thereafter... as though auto healing.. ambulance came... picked her up... her bbq friends brought her to safety and i left....
Result? I will be stronger. What happens when you feel insufficient? Don't doubt and move on in faith.... He is greater in you, more so than you think....
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Time Flies
Its as though time is no longer something that matters in this world. Age is just a number. Date is just a word. Year is just a combination of digits. Do we actually remember everyday for what date it is, what time it is? I guess not. But the things that come together with it are priceless.... perfect memories... moments of euphoria... lengths of over the moon... exhilarating feeling. Its nice to remember.
Time flies though. Do you remember when the term has just ended? Its already 1 week plus since that day... almost 2... and it still feels like yesterday that you are rushing here and there seeking signs and symptoms. This 2 weeks have been really really fulfilling.
I guess its when you are encircled with lovely memories.. things that drive your life... your passion. You no longer put time in as a factor. It totally does not occur to you how much longer the rest of the day is... but instead all you think of is what time you have to be there for the event itself. What time this is going to happen... Things zoom past ... hours fly by ... day turns into night once again and the cycle ensues.
Do i love life for what it is? Do i love life for what it carries for me? Do i love life all the purposes it has provided me with?
I do. Life rocks. =)
Time flies though. Do you remember when the term has just ended? Its already 1 week plus since that day... almost 2... and it still feels like yesterday that you are rushing here and there seeking signs and symptoms. This 2 weeks have been really really fulfilling.
I guess its when you are encircled with lovely memories.. things that drive your life... your passion. You no longer put time in as a factor. It totally does not occur to you how much longer the rest of the day is... but instead all you think of is what time you have to be there for the event itself. What time this is going to happen... Things zoom past ... hours fly by ... day turns into night once again and the cycle ensues.
Do i love life for what it is? Do i love life for what it carries for me? Do i love life all the purposes it has provided me with?
I do. Life rocks. =)
Pain
Do you realise how pain it is? Amazing extents that people can endure just to see perfectness.. Still... the high power beam is a bit over the top... It still hurts now.... lobsters.
Dont you just await to see what happens when its over?
Dont you just await to see what happens when its over?
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Inner Fire
Ever wondered how come everyone is unique? How each person is special in his or her own way?
Just like how we wont know the power behind a fire without touching and experiencing it. We wont know a person until we have seen the hidden talents that were never showcased before. Everyone rocks. Just whether you discover it. When you do, you realise the person is great. When you dont, you will just assume that the person is just a mere person off the streets.
Appreciate everyone for who they are. They are never too insignificant to be a part of your life. You never know.
Pain.
How pain is pain? 4/10. Ever wondered how it feels like to be burnt by fire... pretty radically? Its pain. Fire is dangerous.... looks bewildering .... hurts when you dont know how to control it.
Control =)
Just like how we wont know the power behind a fire without touching and experiencing it. We wont know a person until we have seen the hidden talents that were never showcased before. Everyone rocks. Just whether you discover it. When you do, you realise the person is great. When you dont, you will just assume that the person is just a mere person off the streets.
Appreciate everyone for who they are. They are never too insignificant to be a part of your life. You never know.
Pain.
How pain is pain? 4/10. Ever wondered how it feels like to be burnt by fire... pretty radically? Its pain. Fire is dangerous.... looks bewildering .... hurts when you dont know how to control it.
Control =)
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Direction
You Came From Heaven to Earth
To Show The Way
From The Earth To the Cross
My Debts to Pay
From the Cross to the Grave
From The Grave to the Sky
Lord I Lift Ur Name Up High
Jesus died for me on the cross, so now i live for him, for others.
To Show The Way
From The Earth To the Cross
My Debts to Pay
From the Cross to the Grave
From The Grave to the Sky
Lord I Lift Ur Name Up High
Jesus died for me on the cross, so now i live for him, for others.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Prayer Revisited - Mary Alice
Prayer is many things and does many things. James 5.16.
We are not strengthless, helpless, hopeless in the lord. We need to use the tools in prayer. Always praying for a purpose. Prayer must be effective with a new renewing touch of the word, fervent & passionate. Drink from the river of life from the lord thru passionate prayer.
Personal prayer life - prayer language motivates us to be his witnesses in all the world.
2 things that make you strong, word of god renewing your mind, prayer in worship and in tongues.
Prayer influences the atmosphere around you - the presence of god comes AROUND you, allows for fellowship with the spirit rom 8.26 opens the door to the supernatural, speaks revelation & destiny 1 cor 14.1 which he shows to you, new things come all the time, so you always have to upgrade, strengthens us - makes our spirit man bigger jude 20.21.
I found my peace in you. Living for you and not for me anymore.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Your Song As My Life
Songs.... Are they just mere lyrics that we repeat over and over again to the rhythm.. to the tunes of the song itself? For us to repeat the words of praise and worship that we never actually understood? Words that we sing with confidence but no conviction?
Interestingly enough... i wonder how many of us wonder how these songs came about.... Did you ever wonder? Or ever felt drawn to seek an answer?
I found my song composed in the midst of the wind gushing across my face. Emotions that come and sweep you to where you belong... your destiny.. your vision.... your dreams... All these that has already been put in you when he gave it all on the cross.
You have your own song... like i have mine. Singing that is a thousand times more noteworthy for our father than songs of others... that you know, that He knows.
Fill these lives once again, i want to touch their hands, make their lives whole again.
Interestingly enough... i wonder how many of us wonder how these songs came about.... Did you ever wonder? Or ever felt drawn to seek an answer?
I found my song composed in the midst of the wind gushing across my face. Emotions that come and sweep you to where you belong... your destiny.. your vision.... your dreams... All these that has already been put in you when he gave it all on the cross.
You have your own song... like i have mine. Singing that is a thousand times more noteworthy for our father than songs of others... that you know, that He knows.
Fill these lives once again, i want to touch their hands, make their lives whole again.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Translation
Hospital was quite a sight... somewhat intimidating when you are no longer under the protective cloak of labcoat and pass... Temperature checks and gantries hold new meaning to you... as though you are someone they are wary of. Lost. What other word could be used to describe the feeling when i saw you? Lost for words... lost in thought... lost in translation... every single logical thought was mysteriously taken away... as though i no longer know who i am... but i was in you world... Just taking in things around you and seeing from your perspective. What could i do to help? Lighten the mood with my qns and perhaps.. rhetoric qns.... I rmb you said the best thing is not to remind you of it... but to treat you just like you were still well. Time flashed past so quickly between the moment i put on the mask and the moment i stepped out of the door. What did i remember? Lost.
What do you do when you feel lost... sad.... kind of crushed by things that are beyond your control?
Not much that i could do to undo it. Certain things are just so beyond our control. Yet... i guess we all learn to take things into our stride, and to use other feelings of happiness to suppress.. overwrite sad memories. The overwriting process is not perfect though. A moment of induced euphoria quickly dissipates once the feed stops.
Would you choose to forget? Or remember?
You will get well... not much more that i can say... but trusting in His perfect plan for you. Hang on!
What do you do when you feel lost... sad.... kind of crushed by things that are beyond your control?
Not much that i could do to undo it. Certain things are just so beyond our control. Yet... i guess we all learn to take things into our stride, and to use other feelings of happiness to suppress.. overwrite sad memories. The overwriting process is not perfect though. A moment of induced euphoria quickly dissipates once the feed stops.
Would you choose to forget? Or remember?
You will get well... not much more that i can say... but trusting in His perfect plan for you. Hang on!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Still
Being still in spite of circumstaces...
Reminded by the song - Still.
Every single word from the chorus resonates and only reminds me what is important.
I will soar with you above the storm.
That we know and we trust in your perfect plan. For all to work out, for us to have inner peace, and joy, that we can continue to exude your love and charm.
=)
Reminded by the song - Still.
Every single word from the chorus resonates and only reminds me what is important.
I will soar with you above the storm.
That we know and we trust in your perfect plan. For all to work out, for us to have inner peace, and joy, that we can continue to exude your love and charm.
=)
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Mystique Medicine 2009
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When being in the same course means so much more than just being in the same course. =)Masque
Somehow i lost count of all the tears that have fallen over the span of less than 24 hours... one can try and avoid thinking about it, and spread a smile across his face as he goes about doing his daily work.. it seems normal, that this person looks happy... laughs... his eyes smile... exuding a indisputable sense of joy.... and thus is happy.
But deep inside... below what the mask that you can look from the outside... you do not see what is within... there is no denial that something tugs so firmly at him... clutching his heart.. wrenching it but it just can't be squashed. Helplessness turns into pain which evokes sadness, overwhelming a soul who always thought that medicine would mean a final solution to illnesses.
You think you even know his deeper feelings? Nope, you don't. He just tries not to show his sadness so blatantly for he wants joy for ppl all around him.
We are all just as susceptible... just that we never saw it that way, until something so close.... so near to you presents itself this way.
World without tears... one day.
But deep inside... below what the mask that you can look from the outside... you do not see what is within... there is no denial that something tugs so firmly at him... clutching his heart.. wrenching it but it just can't be squashed. Helplessness turns into pain which evokes sadness, overwhelming a soul who always thought that medicine would mean a final solution to illnesses.
You think you even know his deeper feelings? Nope, you don't. He just tries not to show his sadness so blatantly for he wants joy for ppl all around him.
We are all just as susceptible... just that we never saw it that way, until something so close.... so near to you presents itself this way.
World without tears... one day.
On My Mind
You are still constantly on my mind. You do not know, that's all. Every single day would be one of interceding for you. Asking for deliverance... asking for answers... asking for hope. Just hope that yesterday's prognosis is good.
How i long to be there to be able to offer direct comfort....
Ever wondered what magic can do? it only helps to overexcite that tumour... for the first time... magic seems to be unable to give me a solution.
No amount of psycological understanding, sleight of hand, flashy props could even guarantee that happiness or comfort.
Father make a way...
How i long to be there to be able to offer direct comfort....
Ever wondered what magic can do? it only helps to overexcite that tumour... for the first time... magic seems to be unable to give me a solution.
No amount of psycological understanding, sleight of hand, flashy props could even guarantee that happiness or comfort.
Father make a way...
Friday, May 29, 2009
Make A Way
What do you do when things go beyond what you can control? Beyond what you can even imagine or comprehend? Surpassing what your knowledge can explain or respond to? Making one helpless... sort of like a person trying to cross the red sea. You feel helpless, not knowing what to do. You are insuffient. What would you do?
I don't really know. I can't do anything to directly treat that kind of illness. No technology could guarantee a full recovery. No drugs can take that illness totally away. What would I do?
Prayer & action? when action no longer holds enough strength for me to say it with conviction. Prayer? I would be praying for you everyday. Always one of the top most priorities. It just doesnt seem fair that you should be experiencing all this at such an age... when you are just like one of us... a normal person with a indifferent life. Praying for your recovery, that what should go through would go thru. Father make a way. A way for what you have already called us to do. You have already set us to finish it. That we would finish it, in full glory for you. Lord there is not much more that I can ask in this period of time... no other personal issues even come close to this. Complete it, won't you? All that i would ask for... right now... in the whole of this year... even if there is only 1 prayer request that you would grant... let this be the one.
Somehow i feel your affliction. The kind that radiates down to the chest and causes you to weep uncontrollably. How could this be fair? Don't you think? So much for a person to even endure... and a young person who has not even chance to experience life as a whole. Are You going to rob it away? That fast? That quickly? Time seems to fade into oblivion. Somehow i wonder... what it means to be a miracle healer.... no other person could even come close to it. Even technology and human dexterity could not even achieve that. Father, all we ask is this. Make a way.
I want to be down there for you. And i will. I will...
I don't really know. I can't do anything to directly treat that kind of illness. No technology could guarantee a full recovery. No drugs can take that illness totally away. What would I do?
Prayer & action? when action no longer holds enough strength for me to say it with conviction. Prayer? I would be praying for you everyday. Always one of the top most priorities. It just doesnt seem fair that you should be experiencing all this at such an age... when you are just like one of us... a normal person with a indifferent life. Praying for your recovery, that what should go through would go thru. Father make a way. A way for what you have already called us to do. You have already set us to finish it. That we would finish it, in full glory for you. Lord there is not much more that I can ask in this period of time... no other personal issues even come close to this. Complete it, won't you? All that i would ask for... right now... in the whole of this year... even if there is only 1 prayer request that you would grant... let this be the one.
Somehow i feel your affliction. The kind that radiates down to the chest and causes you to weep uncontrollably. How could this be fair? Don't you think? So much for a person to even endure... and a young person who has not even chance to experience life as a whole. Are You going to rob it away? That fast? That quickly? Time seems to fade into oblivion. Somehow i wonder... what it means to be a miracle healer.... no other person could even come close to it. Even technology and human dexterity could not even achieve that. Father, all we ask is this. Make a way.
I want to be down there for you. And i will. I will...
Thursday, May 28, 2009
6 Weeks of Wisdom & Purpose
Come to think of it, 6 weeks passed by ever so quickly. We wake up, go there, look and see different cases, come back home, read a bit, fall sleep. And the cycle repeats itself the next day. 6 weeks... it just feels like yesterday that we were just being integrated into the wards. How i still remember the faces of every one of the first tutors who taught us on each of the systems. Do you think you will be forgotten? Nope....
You all have made a perfect channel by providing your time to create an unobstructed path for us to feel, and experience what it is to be in the real situation. Its not about the knowledge that you all have within you, that you can regurgitate so effortlessly, but its about the trusting believe that we see from your eyes. The sense of faith and trust that spurs us on, giving us confidence, letting us know that we can still take the first step out into the open sea even without prior experience. We floated.
How much more could we ask from you all, if that wasn't sufficient? If that believe, that series of efforts and time are not enough?
To realise, to believe, to step up, to achieve.. A sequence of steps hat would eventualy lead us to knowing what we should know and what we should do. This journey seems ever so exciting.
Makes a person wonder if days pass by so quickly, that one has almost lost sight of how time could just zoom right past him.... within a couple of moments, year would have passed and by then we would be HOs. Just like joanna we saw today... Doesn't time fly? Time never waits... though memories dwell.
Memories stay forever. The happiness i shared with all of you my dear friends. Char, rq, hl, jo, yk, ian, raymond, june. How i would always remember the laughter that would always fill up the canteen whenever we are having lunch together. How i would always remember rushing from one ward to another with you guys... sweat trickling... but exciting. fun. fulfilling. How i would always know that you guys would try to suan me but always fail (at least i know) ... lol. So many happy memories. I love you guys. Others.. doctors? You all gave a lot also, dr alfred, dr soh, mr koh and team. and of course ms lim. haha how could one ever forget. Exceedingly remarkable memories... numerous different encounters. All form a part of me.
Would i ever revisit this memory? This six weeks of practical work? The concert? The strong relationships forged?
Yes. For it has been nice and wondrous in fulfilling purpose and wisdom.
You all have made a perfect channel by providing your time to create an unobstructed path for us to feel, and experience what it is to be in the real situation. Its not about the knowledge that you all have within you, that you can regurgitate so effortlessly, but its about the trusting believe that we see from your eyes. The sense of faith and trust that spurs us on, giving us confidence, letting us know that we can still take the first step out into the open sea even without prior experience. We floated.
How much more could we ask from you all, if that wasn't sufficient? If that believe, that series of efforts and time are not enough?
To realise, to believe, to step up, to achieve.. A sequence of steps hat would eventualy lead us to knowing what we should know and what we should do. This journey seems ever so exciting.
Makes a person wonder if days pass by so quickly, that one has almost lost sight of how time could just zoom right past him.... within a couple of moments, year would have passed and by then we would be HOs. Just like joanna we saw today... Doesn't time fly? Time never waits... though memories dwell.
Memories stay forever. The happiness i shared with all of you my dear friends. Char, rq, hl, jo, yk, ian, raymond, june. How i would always remember the laughter that would always fill up the canteen whenever we are having lunch together. How i would always remember rushing from one ward to another with you guys... sweat trickling... but exciting. fun. fulfilling. How i would always know that you guys would try to suan me but always fail (at least i know) ... lol. So many happy memories. I love you guys. Others.. doctors? You all gave a lot also, dr alfred, dr soh, mr koh and team. and of course ms lim. haha how could one ever forget. Exceedingly remarkable memories... numerous different encounters. All form a part of me.
Would i ever revisit this memory? This six weeks of practical work? The concert? The strong relationships forged?
Yes. For it has been nice and wondrous in fulfilling purpose and wisdom.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Dinner Rocks
Dinner rocks as usual, even more so when you are treating. Its a nice feeling. Happiness rubs off one another, and multiplies as it spreads. Especially with people whom you are close to and are open to. Kind of a ping pong effect.
Really thank you guys for helping out so much and giving so much of yourself. Feeling happy ... food makes a person full, good food makes a person smile. =)
Really thank you guys for helping out so much and giving so much of yourself. Feeling happy ... food makes a person full, good food makes a person smile. =)
Monday, May 25, 2009
Doctor vs Patient
A doctor without health is called a patient.
How much should a doctor actually give out of himself just to serve the others around him? Should he serve at the expense of his own health just to ensure the complete comfort of the additional patient on top of the countless he has to see every single day?
Should he?
Fyi every single day means practically every single day... they dont get weekends like you think are sabbath days, they get 14 days of leave a year inclusive of weekends....
They slog so much just to give to others... impressive isnt it?
To give up the high life, to give up time that could be spent on relationships, to give up interests, all for someone... someone whom they feel compelled to help.
Utmost profession? I think so.
How much should a doctor actually give out of himself just to serve the others around him? Should he serve at the expense of his own health just to ensure the complete comfort of the additional patient on top of the countless he has to see every single day?
Should he?
Fyi every single day means practically every single day... they dont get weekends like you think are sabbath days, they get 14 days of leave a year inclusive of weekends....
They slog so much just to give to others... impressive isnt it?
To give up the high life, to give up time that could be spent on relationships, to give up interests, all for someone... someone whom they feel compelled to help.
Utmost profession? I think so.
Tri Purpose - One Destiny
Christian? Magician? Doctor?
Which do you put ahead on top of the other 2? Is there some sort of ranking between them, that actually clearly distinguishes them from each other, causing them to be unable to coexist?
I wonder.
Somehow i feel that being more like a doctor orientates your life in such a way that you know why you are living, being a magician lets you remember what you are living for, and being a christian reminds you who you are living for.
There is a very fine line i guess...its hard to answer, if you were to question whether i would put A as a higher purpose than B, or B than C and vice versa.
All 3 actually coexist to bring out a characteristic personality within. One which actually views issues from 3 different perspectives, and finally reaches a common consensus. The common consesus is one that is based upon experience as well as knowledge. More of experience... like how you were to handle a person with knee bruising as opposed to a person with imminent depression.
Practicality and context matters a lot.
Now i guess i know why it takes so much out of me whenever one views issues seriously... 3 perspectives... 3 thoughts... 3 times the energy... within the same amount of time...
Which do you put ahead on top of the other 2? Is there some sort of ranking between them, that actually clearly distinguishes them from each other, causing them to be unable to coexist?
I wonder.
Somehow i feel that being more like a doctor orientates your life in such a way that you know why you are living, being a magician lets you remember what you are living for, and being a christian reminds you who you are living for.
There is a very fine line i guess...its hard to answer, if you were to question whether i would put A as a higher purpose than B, or B than C and vice versa.
All 3 actually coexist to bring out a characteristic personality within. One which actually views issues from 3 different perspectives, and finally reaches a common consensus. The common consesus is one that is based upon experience as well as knowledge. More of experience... like how you were to handle a person with knee bruising as opposed to a person with imminent depression.
Practicality and context matters a lot.
Now i guess i know why it takes so much out of me whenever one views issues seriously... 3 perspectives... 3 thoughts... 3 times the energy... within the same amount of time...
Sunday, May 24, 2009
A Call - Action vs Prayer
Are you willing to let go and surrender in all that He has for you?
Are you willing to step up in selfless faith in what He calls you to do?
So what do you think?
So what do you already know?
So are you willing to believe?
The question is never about what you think, what you know. Its always about the willingness in you. Whether you are willing to accept, to believe, to do.
Prayer is words spoken in view of what the heart seeks. Prayer without actions is still prayer. Do you expect God to answer your prayers to perfect grades, to perfect financial comfort.. if you do not take action..but just by prayer? No.
Actions are things we do to influence our surroundings, changing our circumstances, perhaps to make them more amiable for us to live in. Actions bring about change. Do actions change things around us, like changing the world to be a better place... by our donations to charities, by our selfless efforts to help others in need, by offering time to bring the blind lady where she wants to go? They do. They change the world.
Actions and prayer bring about breakthrough. Prayer sets the mindset right, and actions carry them through.
We talk about praying for you... praying for this... praying for that. Do you think it works? It does change your mindset... setting them in the way that is right... that follows the truth. BUT without action... where do you think you will go? Heaven? Not when you see the blind lady and cast her aside saying i pray that you will get home safely... not when you see a person being wounded and say i pray for you, but i don't dress your wound, but i believe your bleeding will stop....
Practicality. Faith in action. That's what we are called to do, to be Christians. Not just people who pray for others, but people who actively seek in helping others - The 15th Minute Breakthrough. Just imagine how much more people would appreciate what we do for them as Christians if we were to give 15 minutes of our time out of our inconvenience, for their convenience; as opposed to that of us praying for them in our own bedroom.
They would see faith in action, power manifesting, and the love of God flooding and enveloping their lives. =)
Are you willing to step up in selfless faith in what He calls you to do?
So what do you think?
So what do you already know?
So are you willing to believe?
The question is never about what you think, what you know. Its always about the willingness in you. Whether you are willing to accept, to believe, to do.
Prayer is words spoken in view of what the heart seeks. Prayer without actions is still prayer. Do you expect God to answer your prayers to perfect grades, to perfect financial comfort.. if you do not take action..but just by prayer? No.
Actions are things we do to influence our surroundings, changing our circumstances, perhaps to make them more amiable for us to live in. Actions bring about change. Do actions change things around us, like changing the world to be a better place... by our donations to charities, by our selfless efforts to help others in need, by offering time to bring the blind lady where she wants to go? They do. They change the world.
Actions and prayer bring about breakthrough. Prayer sets the mindset right, and actions carry them through.
We talk about praying for you... praying for this... praying for that. Do you think it works? It does change your mindset... setting them in the way that is right... that follows the truth. BUT without action... where do you think you will go? Heaven? Not when you see the blind lady and cast her aside saying i pray that you will get home safely... not when you see a person being wounded and say i pray for you, but i don't dress your wound, but i believe your bleeding will stop....
Practicality. Faith in action. That's what we are called to do, to be Christians. Not just people who pray for others, but people who actively seek in helping others - The 15th Minute Breakthrough. Just imagine how much more people would appreciate what we do for them as Christians if we were to give 15 minutes of our time out of our inconvenience, for their convenience; as opposed to that of us praying for them in our own bedroom.
They would see faith in action, power manifesting, and the love of God flooding and enveloping their lives. =)
Happy Vs Joy
Joy is something we experience everyday cos we know that everyday is made to be joyful, and it is what it is.
Happiness is that derived from others around us. Our friends, family, colleagues, or even strangers who touch us with what they do. Sharing with each other only brings us closer and to a state that we are more able to comprehend and understand what each other's character is. Their likes and dislikes, their philosophy in life, their ambitions, their current goals... everything.
I wonder why i feel totally at ease with you guys during dinner today. So much that we can just go on and on and on. Its either post concert joy, the nice food, or the increased understanding of your different personalities. I would say a bit of all aspects.
Its nice. We should have more =) and i shall not be the only one treating. HAHA! wing if u are reading this.... u know... hehe. But yea you gave a lot out of yourself for the production =)
Happiness is that derived from others around us. Our friends, family, colleagues, or even strangers who touch us with what they do. Sharing with each other only brings us closer and to a state that we are more able to comprehend and understand what each other's character is. Their likes and dislikes, their philosophy in life, their ambitions, their current goals... everything.
I wonder why i feel totally at ease with you guys during dinner today. So much that we can just go on and on and on. Its either post concert joy, the nice food, or the increased understanding of your different personalities. I would say a bit of all aspects.
Its nice. We should have more =) and i shall not be the only one treating. HAHA! wing if u are reading this.... u know... hehe. But yea you gave a lot out of yourself for the production =)
Life Rocks
Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners -- of whom I am the worst.
1 Timothy 1:15
Performances rock... why do i come so near to You whenever i perform. =)
1 Timothy 1:15
Performances rock... why do i come so near to You whenever i perform. =)
Su⋅per⋅nat⋅u⋅ral
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Week of Voices
By the time i come online... i realise i always forgot most of the stuff i wanted to remember. how ironic is that.
Anyway.. quick look at the week. loads of incidents that point to the world being imperfect... or at least, somewhat...
Taking the shuttle bus back to the mrt on friday was something that just showed what nurses truly are. Their personality deep down. I think a world without them would be a world without compassionate care. There was this young nurse gave up her seat when she saw an elderly man walking further to the rear of the bus. That was nice... perhaps something that you can call common even in the singapore today. BUT then, there was a blind lady on the bus itself as well. She din fit the conventional blind lady who wears pitch black sunglasses... hers was clear. And no one noticed... or at least... i din notice. UNTIL this young nurse, how nice of her, to signal and gesture that this lady was blind.. i was like standing in between and i din notice... perhaps the phone conversation was a bit too distracting. Anyway, she reached out and held on to the blind lady throughout the whole bus ride. Even though it was only a 5 min ride. it was nice to see such encouragement and support that a person can offer to someone who was in need. (of course i also held on once i saw she carried a walking stick... that kind that is for tapping the ground)
I was touched by the love she gave. =) anyway story cut short... we alighted and the nurse disappeared so i escorted the blind lady to the bustop and onto bus 9 which she wanted to board. Her image fades away into the horizon as i see her disappear as the bus speeds off. But the act of kindness never dissipates =)
There was as many as 15 ppl on the bus... yet only one reached out... moral of story? imperfection is common... but only in imperfection do we find perfect compassion.
Today... Sometimes i wonder if prayer really works... if without action. During service... what you call it? Slaining? Someone screamed... and she was like just 3 rows behind me.. somewhat for the first time so close... at a range of less than 4m perpendicular distance. Yes she screamed really loudly... and it was continuous. Of course her cg mates went to her aid... but yea i saw ppl stretching out their hands and praying for her... even the person who was like just in front of her... it didnt stop.
Sort of a strange feeling. I know how to stop it. I know what i could do. I felt compelled. I should do something... Did I? Yea i reached over and wanted to cross over but realised i couldnt even see her.. she was like on the ground. Somehow i just knew whatever that i would say would just bring her back within 30seconds.. yet i din.. she continued her screaming.. though it was drained away by the increasing crescendo of the music... perhaps thats why they play it so loudly... that we can just mask all these away...
Why didnt i go over all the way? I don't know. Was I not equipped? With knowledge? With experience? With anointing? I was. Why din I go over? Weird...
And you know what. it just so happened that we wanted to sit elsewhere at first but i decided it was fate that we sat at the lao di fang... with us having to strain our eyes... perhaps its for me to witness this?
God moves in great ways. How do we ever comprehend.
Thereafter... i felt a really really weird feeling. Like omg. Why is it that love from Him causes this kind of sign to be elicited? Is it really love of the holy spirit for this to happen? I want to know the answer. Why.
Somehow... as we sang the lyrics "This is our God" It just made me ponder whether that was really the work of him. Or was it something else? Slaining... looks interesting. always a joy to watch. But ever wondered if it was something else?
Somehow... i felt compelled to know the answer. Feels like i was insufficient... insufficient to even fully comprehend my full purpose for his kingdom. Was it in this area? This area such that He brought me to med as well... somehow.... i felt this equation impress upon me...
Summation of
Magic ie Amazing Feats
Mentalism ie Mind Reading
Medicine ie Healing
Moving in the Holy Spirit ie Anointing
Equates to that of a big M word...
Messiah
defined as the following 1. Supernatural 2. Healer 3. Anointed 4. Not surpassing that of Jesus
It just felt like i could do greater things for Him after seeing what the person doing service today did. Sounds like a logical way to derive the destiny after seeing how everything adds up. Only time could tell...
Anyway.. quick look at the week. loads of incidents that point to the world being imperfect... or at least, somewhat...
Taking the shuttle bus back to the mrt on friday was something that just showed what nurses truly are. Their personality deep down. I think a world without them would be a world without compassionate care. There was this young nurse gave up her seat when she saw an elderly man walking further to the rear of the bus. That was nice... perhaps something that you can call common even in the singapore today. BUT then, there was a blind lady on the bus itself as well. She din fit the conventional blind lady who wears pitch black sunglasses... hers was clear. And no one noticed... or at least... i din notice. UNTIL this young nurse, how nice of her, to signal and gesture that this lady was blind.. i was like standing in between and i din notice... perhaps the phone conversation was a bit too distracting. Anyway, she reached out and held on to the blind lady throughout the whole bus ride. Even though it was only a 5 min ride. it was nice to see such encouragement and support that a person can offer to someone who was in need. (of course i also held on once i saw she carried a walking stick... that kind that is for tapping the ground)
I was touched by the love she gave. =) anyway story cut short... we alighted and the nurse disappeared so i escorted the blind lady to the bustop and onto bus 9 which she wanted to board. Her image fades away into the horizon as i see her disappear as the bus speeds off. But the act of kindness never dissipates =)
There was as many as 15 ppl on the bus... yet only one reached out... moral of story? imperfection is common... but only in imperfection do we find perfect compassion.
Today... Sometimes i wonder if prayer really works... if without action. During service... what you call it? Slaining? Someone screamed... and she was like just 3 rows behind me.. somewhat for the first time so close... at a range of less than 4m perpendicular distance. Yes she screamed really loudly... and it was continuous. Of course her cg mates went to her aid... but yea i saw ppl stretching out their hands and praying for her... even the person who was like just in front of her... it didnt stop.
Sort of a strange feeling. I know how to stop it. I know what i could do. I felt compelled. I should do something... Did I? Yea i reached over and wanted to cross over but realised i couldnt even see her.. she was like on the ground. Somehow i just knew whatever that i would say would just bring her back within 30seconds.. yet i din.. she continued her screaming.. though it was drained away by the increasing crescendo of the music... perhaps thats why they play it so loudly... that we can just mask all these away...
Why didnt i go over all the way? I don't know. Was I not equipped? With knowledge? With experience? With anointing? I was. Why din I go over? Weird...
And you know what. it just so happened that we wanted to sit elsewhere at first but i decided it was fate that we sat at the lao di fang... with us having to strain our eyes... perhaps its for me to witness this?
God moves in great ways. How do we ever comprehend.
Thereafter... i felt a really really weird feeling. Like omg. Why is it that love from Him causes this kind of sign to be elicited? Is it really love of the holy spirit for this to happen? I want to know the answer. Why.
Somehow... as we sang the lyrics "This is our God" It just made me ponder whether that was really the work of him. Or was it something else? Slaining... looks interesting. always a joy to watch. But ever wondered if it was something else?
Somehow... i felt compelled to know the answer. Feels like i was insufficient... insufficient to even fully comprehend my full purpose for his kingdom. Was it in this area? This area such that He brought me to med as well... somehow.... i felt this equation impress upon me...
Summation of
Magic ie Amazing Feats
Mentalism ie Mind Reading
Medicine ie Healing
Moving in the Holy Spirit ie Anointing
Equates to that of a big M word...
Messiah
defined as the following 1. Supernatural 2. Healer 3. Anointed 4. Not surpassing that of Jesus
It just felt like i could do greater things for Him after seeing what the person doing service today did. Sounds like a logical way to derive the destiny after seeing how everything adds up. Only time could tell...
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Judgement - Law vs Grace
We all judge ppl, just that as to what we believe in and who we look to, we try and avoid judging. For we know its wrong, and for one to be worthy enough to judge ppl, one himself first must be perfect, which is NEVER the case.
Perhaps in the case of Jesus, he came... he was PERFECT. So guess what he did? Bring judgement? Bring the law with him to rain upon those who are imperfect? Nope, he brought grace to those who were imperfect, and suffered the punishment of the law HIMSELF. which so clearly distinguishes him from us. we are not him.
Don't you ever wonder what it really means when "His grace is sufficient for you" , "loving ppl fervently", "make disciples from all nations"
#1 its not about imposing this LAW upon them (judging based on what the bible say) no. think about it. Jesus calls us to be like him, as we are made in the image of him. So isn't it all about giving grace to others who are in need, others who are perhaps not worthy (he died for all who were unworthy). why do you want to even think of judging them, even from what the bible says? the word never said to judge....never.
#2 we all talk, sing, say, preach, about love. love. praise songs. worship songs. you really know what is love? or is it just a word you talk about. a word that you say you experience this feeling when you re with someone. a word that is so freely used, yet you never knew what it really means deep inside. or perhaps, you never realised you never knew.
love is what we give to others unconditionally and freely. someone who smacks u right in the face can you say you love her? someone who hurts you with their words do you still say you love her? someone whom is a stranger, and perhaps its just this demeanour that she carries... would you still say you love her?
most of us can hardly even get close to saying i can still say i love this person for the very fact that she is a person. why? we take into account her unworthiness of our love. unworthiness. we condemn. dont you think? we classify ppl into ppl who are worthy of our time, worthy of our love, that we treat them better. there's nothing wrong with that. BUT we classify ppl into ppl TOTALLY unworthy of our time and love, that we condemn them. we judge.
nuts. why do we say we are being christlike in following the bible... and we judge... ironically. with the bible. with the words He said. with the very words He spoke. which we twist, or somehow think that its the truth to say others are wrong just cause they run contrary to the ways of the bible.
even as i write this i feel like making this stand is a judgement in itself of things i heard today. but still. i need to write this for those who ever considered using the bible as a sword to cut ppl down. i only hope that it could be used as a gauze to give grace to people who are already broken. You know the word.. dont you? They don't. What did Jesus say on the cross before he died? To slay those who are unworthy? no...i know he dint. cos you... and me.. are still here. to live for him. to carry his legacy. to give his grace. HIS GRACE that he freely gave to us. to others. =)
Perhaps in the case of Jesus, he came... he was PERFECT. So guess what he did? Bring judgement? Bring the law with him to rain upon those who are imperfect? Nope, he brought grace to those who were imperfect, and suffered the punishment of the law HIMSELF. which so clearly distinguishes him from us. we are not him.
Don't you ever wonder what it really means when "His grace is sufficient for you" , "loving ppl fervently", "make disciples from all nations"
#1 its not about imposing this LAW upon them (judging based on what the bible say) no. think about it. Jesus calls us to be like him, as we are made in the image of him. So isn't it all about giving grace to others who are in need, others who are perhaps not worthy (he died for all who were unworthy). why do you want to even think of judging them, even from what the bible says? the word never said to judge....never.
#2 we all talk, sing, say, preach, about love. love. praise songs. worship songs. you really know what is love? or is it just a word you talk about. a word that you say you experience this feeling when you re with someone. a word that is so freely used, yet you never knew what it really means deep inside. or perhaps, you never realised you never knew.
love is what we give to others unconditionally and freely. someone who smacks u right in the face can you say you love her? someone who hurts you with their words do you still say you love her? someone whom is a stranger, and perhaps its just this demeanour that she carries... would you still say you love her?
most of us can hardly even get close to saying i can still say i love this person for the very fact that she is a person. why? we take into account her unworthiness of our love. unworthiness. we condemn. dont you think? we classify ppl into ppl who are worthy of our time, worthy of our love, that we treat them better. there's nothing wrong with that. BUT we classify ppl into ppl TOTALLY unworthy of our time and love, that we condemn them. we judge.
nuts. why do we say we are being christlike in following the bible... and we judge... ironically. with the bible. with the words He said. with the very words He spoke. which we twist, or somehow think that its the truth to say others are wrong just cause they run contrary to the ways of the bible.
even as i write this i feel like making this stand is a judgement in itself of things i heard today. but still. i need to write this for those who ever considered using the bible as a sword to cut ppl down. i only hope that it could be used as a gauze to give grace to people who are already broken. You know the word.. dont you? They don't. What did Jesus say on the cross before he died? To slay those who are unworthy? no...i know he dint. cos you... and me.. are still here. to live for him. to carry his legacy. to give his grace. HIS GRACE that he freely gave to us. to others. =)
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Letchmy
So how would you feel if someone whom you see in the morning and by late afternoon you realise something has happened, taking her away from you?
Letchmy. How old? I can't remember. Only image was that you were on ventilatory support and lying there in bed. Could i remember the fine features? Nope. They are whisked away together with the wind that carries you on. So swift.
Makes me wonder what a person would feel if the one being whisked away is someone whom you have forged bonds with, and know perhaps a bit more about. You would break down? Nope. Perhaps... I don't know.
Letchmy. How old? I can't remember. Only image was that you were on ventilatory support and lying there in bed. Could i remember the fine features? Nope. They are whisked away together with the wind that carries you on. So swift.
Makes me wonder what a person would feel if the one being whisked away is someone whom you have forged bonds with, and know perhaps a bit more about. You would break down? Nope. Perhaps... I don't know.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Nice
http://www.jonschmidt.com/catalog/music_video.html
Cool. More than just music with passion. =)
Exhilarating.
Cool. More than just music with passion. =)
Exhilarating.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
What You Gave
Freely You Gave It All For Us
Surrendered Your Life Upon That Cross
How long more before we can just be like you, to freely give, to surrender all...
Mystique was an invigorating experience... truly. Everyone had varied memories as to which effect is the sweetest. A wide variety... which is good. Well balanced and enough show vs interact.
A Class? Almost. Close. Soon.
As every vision comes towards completion, there comes a time of renewal. For one to move on, to see what else there is to come. Moving from glory to glory. All that we see and hear and do is through you who gives us strength, that we will be able to use these gifts for your namesake, to bless others, to shine as your light, your testimony.
Would there be a next concert? Many ask... Yes of course. But no vision as of yet... = no concert for the moment.
Would the next one be different? Yes of course... i wont want to burden my dear comm with so much work... you guys have to sit down and enjoy... really =) really want you all to share in what you all have given to help bring me thru all these. What else would be different? Effects? Yes, much more improvised. Elevated.
Pray over career, friends, relationships, family, academics. =)
Whatever you ask, you claim and you believe you have received it in full.
What this life is about... its not about me, its about You. We can plan, You will lead the way.
Surrendered Your Life Upon That Cross
How long more before we can just be like you, to freely give, to surrender all...
Mystique was an invigorating experience... truly. Everyone had varied memories as to which effect is the sweetest. A wide variety... which is good. Well balanced and enough show vs interact.
A Class? Almost. Close. Soon.
As every vision comes towards completion, there comes a time of renewal. For one to move on, to see what else there is to come. Moving from glory to glory. All that we see and hear and do is through you who gives us strength, that we will be able to use these gifts for your namesake, to bless others, to shine as your light, your testimony.
Would there be a next concert? Many ask... Yes of course. But no vision as of yet... = no concert for the moment.
Would the next one be different? Yes of course... i wont want to burden my dear comm with so much work... you guys have to sit down and enjoy... really =) really want you all to share in what you all have given to help bring me thru all these. What else would be different? Effects? Yes, much more improvised. Elevated.
Pray over career, friends, relationships, family, academics. =)
Whatever you ask, you claim and you believe you have received it in full.
What this life is about... its not about me, its about You. We can plan, You will lead the way.
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