Being still in spite of circumstaces...
Reminded by the song - Still.
Every single word from the chorus resonates and only reminds me what is important.
I will soar with you above the storm.
That we know and we trust in your perfect plan. For all to work out, for us to have inner peace, and joy, that we can continue to exude your love and charm.
=)
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Mystique Medicine 2009
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When being in the same course means so much more than just being in the same course. =)Masque
Somehow i lost count of all the tears that have fallen over the span of less than 24 hours... one can try and avoid thinking about it, and spread a smile across his face as he goes about doing his daily work.. it seems normal, that this person looks happy... laughs... his eyes smile... exuding a indisputable sense of joy.... and thus is happy.
But deep inside... below what the mask that you can look from the outside... you do not see what is within... there is no denial that something tugs so firmly at him... clutching his heart.. wrenching it but it just can't be squashed. Helplessness turns into pain which evokes sadness, overwhelming a soul who always thought that medicine would mean a final solution to illnesses.
You think you even know his deeper feelings? Nope, you don't. He just tries not to show his sadness so blatantly for he wants joy for ppl all around him.
We are all just as susceptible... just that we never saw it that way, until something so close.... so near to you presents itself this way.
World without tears... one day.
But deep inside... below what the mask that you can look from the outside... you do not see what is within... there is no denial that something tugs so firmly at him... clutching his heart.. wrenching it but it just can't be squashed. Helplessness turns into pain which evokes sadness, overwhelming a soul who always thought that medicine would mean a final solution to illnesses.
You think you even know his deeper feelings? Nope, you don't. He just tries not to show his sadness so blatantly for he wants joy for ppl all around him.
We are all just as susceptible... just that we never saw it that way, until something so close.... so near to you presents itself this way.
World without tears... one day.
On My Mind
You are still constantly on my mind. You do not know, that's all. Every single day would be one of interceding for you. Asking for deliverance... asking for answers... asking for hope. Just hope that yesterday's prognosis is good.
How i long to be there to be able to offer direct comfort....
Ever wondered what magic can do? it only helps to overexcite that tumour... for the first time... magic seems to be unable to give me a solution.
No amount of psycological understanding, sleight of hand, flashy props could even guarantee that happiness or comfort.
Father make a way...
How i long to be there to be able to offer direct comfort....
Ever wondered what magic can do? it only helps to overexcite that tumour... for the first time... magic seems to be unable to give me a solution.
No amount of psycological understanding, sleight of hand, flashy props could even guarantee that happiness or comfort.
Father make a way...
Friday, May 29, 2009
Make A Way
What do you do when things go beyond what you can control? Beyond what you can even imagine or comprehend? Surpassing what your knowledge can explain or respond to? Making one helpless... sort of like a person trying to cross the red sea. You feel helpless, not knowing what to do. You are insuffient. What would you do?
I don't really know. I can't do anything to directly treat that kind of illness. No technology could guarantee a full recovery. No drugs can take that illness totally away. What would I do?
Prayer & action? when action no longer holds enough strength for me to say it with conviction. Prayer? I would be praying for you everyday. Always one of the top most priorities. It just doesnt seem fair that you should be experiencing all this at such an age... when you are just like one of us... a normal person with a indifferent life. Praying for your recovery, that what should go through would go thru. Father make a way. A way for what you have already called us to do. You have already set us to finish it. That we would finish it, in full glory for you. Lord there is not much more that I can ask in this period of time... no other personal issues even come close to this. Complete it, won't you? All that i would ask for... right now... in the whole of this year... even if there is only 1 prayer request that you would grant... let this be the one.
Somehow i feel your affliction. The kind that radiates down to the chest and causes you to weep uncontrollably. How could this be fair? Don't you think? So much for a person to even endure... and a young person who has not even chance to experience life as a whole. Are You going to rob it away? That fast? That quickly? Time seems to fade into oblivion. Somehow i wonder... what it means to be a miracle healer.... no other person could even come close to it. Even technology and human dexterity could not even achieve that. Father, all we ask is this. Make a way.
I want to be down there for you. And i will. I will...
I don't really know. I can't do anything to directly treat that kind of illness. No technology could guarantee a full recovery. No drugs can take that illness totally away. What would I do?
Prayer & action? when action no longer holds enough strength for me to say it with conviction. Prayer? I would be praying for you everyday. Always one of the top most priorities. It just doesnt seem fair that you should be experiencing all this at such an age... when you are just like one of us... a normal person with a indifferent life. Praying for your recovery, that what should go through would go thru. Father make a way. A way for what you have already called us to do. You have already set us to finish it. That we would finish it, in full glory for you. Lord there is not much more that I can ask in this period of time... no other personal issues even come close to this. Complete it, won't you? All that i would ask for... right now... in the whole of this year... even if there is only 1 prayer request that you would grant... let this be the one.
Somehow i feel your affliction. The kind that radiates down to the chest and causes you to weep uncontrollably. How could this be fair? Don't you think? So much for a person to even endure... and a young person who has not even chance to experience life as a whole. Are You going to rob it away? That fast? That quickly? Time seems to fade into oblivion. Somehow i wonder... what it means to be a miracle healer.... no other person could even come close to it. Even technology and human dexterity could not even achieve that. Father, all we ask is this. Make a way.
I want to be down there for you. And i will. I will...
Thursday, May 28, 2009
6 Weeks of Wisdom & Purpose
Come to think of it, 6 weeks passed by ever so quickly. We wake up, go there, look and see different cases, come back home, read a bit, fall sleep. And the cycle repeats itself the next day. 6 weeks... it just feels like yesterday that we were just being integrated into the wards. How i still remember the faces of every one of the first tutors who taught us on each of the systems. Do you think you will be forgotten? Nope....
You all have made a perfect channel by providing your time to create an unobstructed path for us to feel, and experience what it is to be in the real situation. Its not about the knowledge that you all have within you, that you can regurgitate so effortlessly, but its about the trusting believe that we see from your eyes. The sense of faith and trust that spurs us on, giving us confidence, letting us know that we can still take the first step out into the open sea even without prior experience. We floated.
How much more could we ask from you all, if that wasn't sufficient? If that believe, that series of efforts and time are not enough?
To realise, to believe, to step up, to achieve.. A sequence of steps hat would eventualy lead us to knowing what we should know and what we should do. This journey seems ever so exciting.
Makes a person wonder if days pass by so quickly, that one has almost lost sight of how time could just zoom right past him.... within a couple of moments, year would have passed and by then we would be HOs. Just like joanna we saw today... Doesn't time fly? Time never waits... though memories dwell.
Memories stay forever. The happiness i shared with all of you my dear friends. Char, rq, hl, jo, yk, ian, raymond, june. How i would always remember the laughter that would always fill up the canteen whenever we are having lunch together. How i would always remember rushing from one ward to another with you guys... sweat trickling... but exciting. fun. fulfilling. How i would always know that you guys would try to suan me but always fail (at least i know) ... lol. So many happy memories. I love you guys. Others.. doctors? You all gave a lot also, dr alfred, dr soh, mr koh and team. and of course ms lim. haha how could one ever forget. Exceedingly remarkable memories... numerous different encounters. All form a part of me.
Would i ever revisit this memory? This six weeks of practical work? The concert? The strong relationships forged?
Yes. For it has been nice and wondrous in fulfilling purpose and wisdom.
You all have made a perfect channel by providing your time to create an unobstructed path for us to feel, and experience what it is to be in the real situation. Its not about the knowledge that you all have within you, that you can regurgitate so effortlessly, but its about the trusting believe that we see from your eyes. The sense of faith and trust that spurs us on, giving us confidence, letting us know that we can still take the first step out into the open sea even without prior experience. We floated.
How much more could we ask from you all, if that wasn't sufficient? If that believe, that series of efforts and time are not enough?
To realise, to believe, to step up, to achieve.. A sequence of steps hat would eventualy lead us to knowing what we should know and what we should do. This journey seems ever so exciting.
Makes a person wonder if days pass by so quickly, that one has almost lost sight of how time could just zoom right past him.... within a couple of moments, year would have passed and by then we would be HOs. Just like joanna we saw today... Doesn't time fly? Time never waits... though memories dwell.
Memories stay forever. The happiness i shared with all of you my dear friends. Char, rq, hl, jo, yk, ian, raymond, june. How i would always remember the laughter that would always fill up the canteen whenever we are having lunch together. How i would always remember rushing from one ward to another with you guys... sweat trickling... but exciting. fun. fulfilling. How i would always know that you guys would try to suan me but always fail (at least i know) ... lol. So many happy memories. I love you guys. Others.. doctors? You all gave a lot also, dr alfred, dr soh, mr koh and team. and of course ms lim. haha how could one ever forget. Exceedingly remarkable memories... numerous different encounters. All form a part of me.
Would i ever revisit this memory? This six weeks of practical work? The concert? The strong relationships forged?
Yes. For it has been nice and wondrous in fulfilling purpose and wisdom.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Dinner Rocks
Dinner rocks as usual, even more so when you are treating. Its a nice feeling. Happiness rubs off one another, and multiplies as it spreads. Especially with people whom you are close to and are open to. Kind of a ping pong effect.
Really thank you guys for helping out so much and giving so much of yourself. Feeling happy ... food makes a person full, good food makes a person smile. =)
Really thank you guys for helping out so much and giving so much of yourself. Feeling happy ... food makes a person full, good food makes a person smile. =)
Monday, May 25, 2009
Doctor vs Patient
A doctor without health is called a patient.
How much should a doctor actually give out of himself just to serve the others around him? Should he serve at the expense of his own health just to ensure the complete comfort of the additional patient on top of the countless he has to see every single day?
Should he?
Fyi every single day means practically every single day... they dont get weekends like you think are sabbath days, they get 14 days of leave a year inclusive of weekends....
They slog so much just to give to others... impressive isnt it?
To give up the high life, to give up time that could be spent on relationships, to give up interests, all for someone... someone whom they feel compelled to help.
Utmost profession? I think so.
How much should a doctor actually give out of himself just to serve the others around him? Should he serve at the expense of his own health just to ensure the complete comfort of the additional patient on top of the countless he has to see every single day?
Should he?
Fyi every single day means practically every single day... they dont get weekends like you think are sabbath days, they get 14 days of leave a year inclusive of weekends....
They slog so much just to give to others... impressive isnt it?
To give up the high life, to give up time that could be spent on relationships, to give up interests, all for someone... someone whom they feel compelled to help.
Utmost profession? I think so.
Tri Purpose - One Destiny
Christian? Magician? Doctor?
Which do you put ahead on top of the other 2? Is there some sort of ranking between them, that actually clearly distinguishes them from each other, causing them to be unable to coexist?
I wonder.
Somehow i feel that being more like a doctor orientates your life in such a way that you know why you are living, being a magician lets you remember what you are living for, and being a christian reminds you who you are living for.
There is a very fine line i guess...its hard to answer, if you were to question whether i would put A as a higher purpose than B, or B than C and vice versa.
All 3 actually coexist to bring out a characteristic personality within. One which actually views issues from 3 different perspectives, and finally reaches a common consensus. The common consesus is one that is based upon experience as well as knowledge. More of experience... like how you were to handle a person with knee bruising as opposed to a person with imminent depression.
Practicality and context matters a lot.
Now i guess i know why it takes so much out of me whenever one views issues seriously... 3 perspectives... 3 thoughts... 3 times the energy... within the same amount of time...
Which do you put ahead on top of the other 2? Is there some sort of ranking between them, that actually clearly distinguishes them from each other, causing them to be unable to coexist?
I wonder.
Somehow i feel that being more like a doctor orientates your life in such a way that you know why you are living, being a magician lets you remember what you are living for, and being a christian reminds you who you are living for.
There is a very fine line i guess...its hard to answer, if you were to question whether i would put A as a higher purpose than B, or B than C and vice versa.
All 3 actually coexist to bring out a characteristic personality within. One which actually views issues from 3 different perspectives, and finally reaches a common consensus. The common consesus is one that is based upon experience as well as knowledge. More of experience... like how you were to handle a person with knee bruising as opposed to a person with imminent depression.
Practicality and context matters a lot.
Now i guess i know why it takes so much out of me whenever one views issues seriously... 3 perspectives... 3 thoughts... 3 times the energy... within the same amount of time...
Sunday, May 24, 2009
A Call - Action vs Prayer
Are you willing to let go and surrender in all that He has for you?
Are you willing to step up in selfless faith in what He calls you to do?
So what do you think?
So what do you already know?
So are you willing to believe?
The question is never about what you think, what you know. Its always about the willingness in you. Whether you are willing to accept, to believe, to do.
Prayer is words spoken in view of what the heart seeks. Prayer without actions is still prayer. Do you expect God to answer your prayers to perfect grades, to perfect financial comfort.. if you do not take action..but just by prayer? No.
Actions are things we do to influence our surroundings, changing our circumstances, perhaps to make them more amiable for us to live in. Actions bring about change. Do actions change things around us, like changing the world to be a better place... by our donations to charities, by our selfless efforts to help others in need, by offering time to bring the blind lady where she wants to go? They do. They change the world.
Actions and prayer bring about breakthrough. Prayer sets the mindset right, and actions carry them through.
We talk about praying for you... praying for this... praying for that. Do you think it works? It does change your mindset... setting them in the way that is right... that follows the truth. BUT without action... where do you think you will go? Heaven? Not when you see the blind lady and cast her aside saying i pray that you will get home safely... not when you see a person being wounded and say i pray for you, but i don't dress your wound, but i believe your bleeding will stop....
Practicality. Faith in action. That's what we are called to do, to be Christians. Not just people who pray for others, but people who actively seek in helping others - The 15th Minute Breakthrough. Just imagine how much more people would appreciate what we do for them as Christians if we were to give 15 minutes of our time out of our inconvenience, for their convenience; as opposed to that of us praying for them in our own bedroom.
They would see faith in action, power manifesting, and the love of God flooding and enveloping their lives. =)
Are you willing to step up in selfless faith in what He calls you to do?
So what do you think?
So what do you already know?
So are you willing to believe?
The question is never about what you think, what you know. Its always about the willingness in you. Whether you are willing to accept, to believe, to do.
Prayer is words spoken in view of what the heart seeks. Prayer without actions is still prayer. Do you expect God to answer your prayers to perfect grades, to perfect financial comfort.. if you do not take action..but just by prayer? No.
Actions are things we do to influence our surroundings, changing our circumstances, perhaps to make them more amiable for us to live in. Actions bring about change. Do actions change things around us, like changing the world to be a better place... by our donations to charities, by our selfless efforts to help others in need, by offering time to bring the blind lady where she wants to go? They do. They change the world.
Actions and prayer bring about breakthrough. Prayer sets the mindset right, and actions carry them through.
We talk about praying for you... praying for this... praying for that. Do you think it works? It does change your mindset... setting them in the way that is right... that follows the truth. BUT without action... where do you think you will go? Heaven? Not when you see the blind lady and cast her aside saying i pray that you will get home safely... not when you see a person being wounded and say i pray for you, but i don't dress your wound, but i believe your bleeding will stop....
Practicality. Faith in action. That's what we are called to do, to be Christians. Not just people who pray for others, but people who actively seek in helping others - The 15th Minute Breakthrough. Just imagine how much more people would appreciate what we do for them as Christians if we were to give 15 minutes of our time out of our inconvenience, for their convenience; as opposed to that of us praying for them in our own bedroom.
They would see faith in action, power manifesting, and the love of God flooding and enveloping their lives. =)
Happy Vs Joy
Joy is something we experience everyday cos we know that everyday is made to be joyful, and it is what it is.
Happiness is that derived from others around us. Our friends, family, colleagues, or even strangers who touch us with what they do. Sharing with each other only brings us closer and to a state that we are more able to comprehend and understand what each other's character is. Their likes and dislikes, their philosophy in life, their ambitions, their current goals... everything.
I wonder why i feel totally at ease with you guys during dinner today. So much that we can just go on and on and on. Its either post concert joy, the nice food, or the increased understanding of your different personalities. I would say a bit of all aspects.
Its nice. We should have more =) and i shall not be the only one treating. HAHA! wing if u are reading this.... u know... hehe. But yea you gave a lot out of yourself for the production =)
Happiness is that derived from others around us. Our friends, family, colleagues, or even strangers who touch us with what they do. Sharing with each other only brings us closer and to a state that we are more able to comprehend and understand what each other's character is. Their likes and dislikes, their philosophy in life, their ambitions, their current goals... everything.
I wonder why i feel totally at ease with you guys during dinner today. So much that we can just go on and on and on. Its either post concert joy, the nice food, or the increased understanding of your different personalities. I would say a bit of all aspects.
Its nice. We should have more =) and i shall not be the only one treating. HAHA! wing if u are reading this.... u know... hehe. But yea you gave a lot out of yourself for the production =)
Life Rocks
Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners -- of whom I am the worst.
1 Timothy 1:15
Performances rock... why do i come so near to You whenever i perform. =)
1 Timothy 1:15
Performances rock... why do i come so near to You whenever i perform. =)
Su⋅per⋅nat⋅u⋅ral
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Week of Voices
By the time i come online... i realise i always forgot most of the stuff i wanted to remember. how ironic is that.
Anyway.. quick look at the week. loads of incidents that point to the world being imperfect... or at least, somewhat...
Taking the shuttle bus back to the mrt on friday was something that just showed what nurses truly are. Their personality deep down. I think a world without them would be a world without compassionate care. There was this young nurse gave up her seat when she saw an elderly man walking further to the rear of the bus. That was nice... perhaps something that you can call common even in the singapore today. BUT then, there was a blind lady on the bus itself as well. She din fit the conventional blind lady who wears pitch black sunglasses... hers was clear. And no one noticed... or at least... i din notice. UNTIL this young nurse, how nice of her, to signal and gesture that this lady was blind.. i was like standing in between and i din notice... perhaps the phone conversation was a bit too distracting. Anyway, she reached out and held on to the blind lady throughout the whole bus ride. Even though it was only a 5 min ride. it was nice to see such encouragement and support that a person can offer to someone who was in need. (of course i also held on once i saw she carried a walking stick... that kind that is for tapping the ground)
I was touched by the love she gave. =) anyway story cut short... we alighted and the nurse disappeared so i escorted the blind lady to the bustop and onto bus 9 which she wanted to board. Her image fades away into the horizon as i see her disappear as the bus speeds off. But the act of kindness never dissipates =)
There was as many as 15 ppl on the bus... yet only one reached out... moral of story? imperfection is common... but only in imperfection do we find perfect compassion.
Today... Sometimes i wonder if prayer really works... if without action. During service... what you call it? Slaining? Someone screamed... and she was like just 3 rows behind me.. somewhat for the first time so close... at a range of less than 4m perpendicular distance. Yes she screamed really loudly... and it was continuous. Of course her cg mates went to her aid... but yea i saw ppl stretching out their hands and praying for her... even the person who was like just in front of her... it didnt stop.
Sort of a strange feeling. I know how to stop it. I know what i could do. I felt compelled. I should do something... Did I? Yea i reached over and wanted to cross over but realised i couldnt even see her.. she was like on the ground. Somehow i just knew whatever that i would say would just bring her back within 30seconds.. yet i din.. she continued her screaming.. though it was drained away by the increasing crescendo of the music... perhaps thats why they play it so loudly... that we can just mask all these away...
Why didnt i go over all the way? I don't know. Was I not equipped? With knowledge? With experience? With anointing? I was. Why din I go over? Weird...
And you know what. it just so happened that we wanted to sit elsewhere at first but i decided it was fate that we sat at the lao di fang... with us having to strain our eyes... perhaps its for me to witness this?
God moves in great ways. How do we ever comprehend.
Thereafter... i felt a really really weird feeling. Like omg. Why is it that love from Him causes this kind of sign to be elicited? Is it really love of the holy spirit for this to happen? I want to know the answer. Why.
Somehow... as we sang the lyrics "This is our God" It just made me ponder whether that was really the work of him. Or was it something else? Slaining... looks interesting. always a joy to watch. But ever wondered if it was something else?
Somehow... i felt compelled to know the answer. Feels like i was insufficient... insufficient to even fully comprehend my full purpose for his kingdom. Was it in this area? This area such that He brought me to med as well... somehow.... i felt this equation impress upon me...
Summation of
Magic ie Amazing Feats
Mentalism ie Mind Reading
Medicine ie Healing
Moving in the Holy Spirit ie Anointing
Equates to that of a big M word...
Messiah
defined as the following 1. Supernatural 2. Healer 3. Anointed 4. Not surpassing that of Jesus
It just felt like i could do greater things for Him after seeing what the person doing service today did. Sounds like a logical way to derive the destiny after seeing how everything adds up. Only time could tell...
Anyway.. quick look at the week. loads of incidents that point to the world being imperfect... or at least, somewhat...
Taking the shuttle bus back to the mrt on friday was something that just showed what nurses truly are. Their personality deep down. I think a world without them would be a world without compassionate care. There was this young nurse gave up her seat when she saw an elderly man walking further to the rear of the bus. That was nice... perhaps something that you can call common even in the singapore today. BUT then, there was a blind lady on the bus itself as well. She din fit the conventional blind lady who wears pitch black sunglasses... hers was clear. And no one noticed... or at least... i din notice. UNTIL this young nurse, how nice of her, to signal and gesture that this lady was blind.. i was like standing in between and i din notice... perhaps the phone conversation was a bit too distracting. Anyway, she reached out and held on to the blind lady throughout the whole bus ride. Even though it was only a 5 min ride. it was nice to see such encouragement and support that a person can offer to someone who was in need. (of course i also held on once i saw she carried a walking stick... that kind that is for tapping the ground)
I was touched by the love she gave. =) anyway story cut short... we alighted and the nurse disappeared so i escorted the blind lady to the bustop and onto bus 9 which she wanted to board. Her image fades away into the horizon as i see her disappear as the bus speeds off. But the act of kindness never dissipates =)
There was as many as 15 ppl on the bus... yet only one reached out... moral of story? imperfection is common... but only in imperfection do we find perfect compassion.
Today... Sometimes i wonder if prayer really works... if without action. During service... what you call it? Slaining? Someone screamed... and she was like just 3 rows behind me.. somewhat for the first time so close... at a range of less than 4m perpendicular distance. Yes she screamed really loudly... and it was continuous. Of course her cg mates went to her aid... but yea i saw ppl stretching out their hands and praying for her... even the person who was like just in front of her... it didnt stop.
Sort of a strange feeling. I know how to stop it. I know what i could do. I felt compelled. I should do something... Did I? Yea i reached over and wanted to cross over but realised i couldnt even see her.. she was like on the ground. Somehow i just knew whatever that i would say would just bring her back within 30seconds.. yet i din.. she continued her screaming.. though it was drained away by the increasing crescendo of the music... perhaps thats why they play it so loudly... that we can just mask all these away...
Why didnt i go over all the way? I don't know. Was I not equipped? With knowledge? With experience? With anointing? I was. Why din I go over? Weird...
And you know what. it just so happened that we wanted to sit elsewhere at first but i decided it was fate that we sat at the lao di fang... with us having to strain our eyes... perhaps its for me to witness this?
God moves in great ways. How do we ever comprehend.
Thereafter... i felt a really really weird feeling. Like omg. Why is it that love from Him causes this kind of sign to be elicited? Is it really love of the holy spirit for this to happen? I want to know the answer. Why.
Somehow... as we sang the lyrics "This is our God" It just made me ponder whether that was really the work of him. Or was it something else? Slaining... looks interesting. always a joy to watch. But ever wondered if it was something else?
Somehow... i felt compelled to know the answer. Feels like i was insufficient... insufficient to even fully comprehend my full purpose for his kingdom. Was it in this area? This area such that He brought me to med as well... somehow.... i felt this equation impress upon me...
Summation of
Magic ie Amazing Feats
Mentalism ie Mind Reading
Medicine ie Healing
Moving in the Holy Spirit ie Anointing
Equates to that of a big M word...
Messiah
defined as the following 1. Supernatural 2. Healer 3. Anointed 4. Not surpassing that of Jesus
It just felt like i could do greater things for Him after seeing what the person doing service today did. Sounds like a logical way to derive the destiny after seeing how everything adds up. Only time could tell...
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Judgement - Law vs Grace
We all judge ppl, just that as to what we believe in and who we look to, we try and avoid judging. For we know its wrong, and for one to be worthy enough to judge ppl, one himself first must be perfect, which is NEVER the case.
Perhaps in the case of Jesus, he came... he was PERFECT. So guess what he did? Bring judgement? Bring the law with him to rain upon those who are imperfect? Nope, he brought grace to those who were imperfect, and suffered the punishment of the law HIMSELF. which so clearly distinguishes him from us. we are not him.
Don't you ever wonder what it really means when "His grace is sufficient for you" , "loving ppl fervently", "make disciples from all nations"
#1 its not about imposing this LAW upon them (judging based on what the bible say) no. think about it. Jesus calls us to be like him, as we are made in the image of him. So isn't it all about giving grace to others who are in need, others who are perhaps not worthy (he died for all who were unworthy). why do you want to even think of judging them, even from what the bible says? the word never said to judge....never.
#2 we all talk, sing, say, preach, about love. love. praise songs. worship songs. you really know what is love? or is it just a word you talk about. a word that you say you experience this feeling when you re with someone. a word that is so freely used, yet you never knew what it really means deep inside. or perhaps, you never realised you never knew.
love is what we give to others unconditionally and freely. someone who smacks u right in the face can you say you love her? someone who hurts you with their words do you still say you love her? someone whom is a stranger, and perhaps its just this demeanour that she carries... would you still say you love her?
most of us can hardly even get close to saying i can still say i love this person for the very fact that she is a person. why? we take into account her unworthiness of our love. unworthiness. we condemn. dont you think? we classify ppl into ppl who are worthy of our time, worthy of our love, that we treat them better. there's nothing wrong with that. BUT we classify ppl into ppl TOTALLY unworthy of our time and love, that we condemn them. we judge.
nuts. why do we say we are being christlike in following the bible... and we judge... ironically. with the bible. with the words He said. with the very words He spoke. which we twist, or somehow think that its the truth to say others are wrong just cause they run contrary to the ways of the bible.
even as i write this i feel like making this stand is a judgement in itself of things i heard today. but still. i need to write this for those who ever considered using the bible as a sword to cut ppl down. i only hope that it could be used as a gauze to give grace to people who are already broken. You know the word.. dont you? They don't. What did Jesus say on the cross before he died? To slay those who are unworthy? no...i know he dint. cos you... and me.. are still here. to live for him. to carry his legacy. to give his grace. HIS GRACE that he freely gave to us. to others. =)
Perhaps in the case of Jesus, he came... he was PERFECT. So guess what he did? Bring judgement? Bring the law with him to rain upon those who are imperfect? Nope, he brought grace to those who were imperfect, and suffered the punishment of the law HIMSELF. which so clearly distinguishes him from us. we are not him.
Don't you ever wonder what it really means when "His grace is sufficient for you" , "loving ppl fervently", "make disciples from all nations"
#1 its not about imposing this LAW upon them (judging based on what the bible say) no. think about it. Jesus calls us to be like him, as we are made in the image of him. So isn't it all about giving grace to others who are in need, others who are perhaps not worthy (he died for all who were unworthy). why do you want to even think of judging them, even from what the bible says? the word never said to judge....never.
#2 we all talk, sing, say, preach, about love. love. praise songs. worship songs. you really know what is love? or is it just a word you talk about. a word that you say you experience this feeling when you re with someone. a word that is so freely used, yet you never knew what it really means deep inside. or perhaps, you never realised you never knew.
love is what we give to others unconditionally and freely. someone who smacks u right in the face can you say you love her? someone who hurts you with their words do you still say you love her? someone whom is a stranger, and perhaps its just this demeanour that she carries... would you still say you love her?
most of us can hardly even get close to saying i can still say i love this person for the very fact that she is a person. why? we take into account her unworthiness of our love. unworthiness. we condemn. dont you think? we classify ppl into ppl who are worthy of our time, worthy of our love, that we treat them better. there's nothing wrong with that. BUT we classify ppl into ppl TOTALLY unworthy of our time and love, that we condemn them. we judge.
nuts. why do we say we are being christlike in following the bible... and we judge... ironically. with the bible. with the words He said. with the very words He spoke. which we twist, or somehow think that its the truth to say others are wrong just cause they run contrary to the ways of the bible.
even as i write this i feel like making this stand is a judgement in itself of things i heard today. but still. i need to write this for those who ever considered using the bible as a sword to cut ppl down. i only hope that it could be used as a gauze to give grace to people who are already broken. You know the word.. dont you? They don't. What did Jesus say on the cross before he died? To slay those who are unworthy? no...i know he dint. cos you... and me.. are still here. to live for him. to carry his legacy. to give his grace. HIS GRACE that he freely gave to us. to others. =)
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Letchmy
So how would you feel if someone whom you see in the morning and by late afternoon you realise something has happened, taking her away from you?
Letchmy. How old? I can't remember. Only image was that you were on ventilatory support and lying there in bed. Could i remember the fine features? Nope. They are whisked away together with the wind that carries you on. So swift.
Makes me wonder what a person would feel if the one being whisked away is someone whom you have forged bonds with, and know perhaps a bit more about. You would break down? Nope. Perhaps... I don't know.
Letchmy. How old? I can't remember. Only image was that you were on ventilatory support and lying there in bed. Could i remember the fine features? Nope. They are whisked away together with the wind that carries you on. So swift.
Makes me wonder what a person would feel if the one being whisked away is someone whom you have forged bonds with, and know perhaps a bit more about. You would break down? Nope. Perhaps... I don't know.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Nice
http://www.jonschmidt.com/catalog/music_video.html
Cool. More than just music with passion. =)
Exhilarating.
Cool. More than just music with passion. =)
Exhilarating.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
What You Gave
Freely You Gave It All For Us
Surrendered Your Life Upon That Cross
How long more before we can just be like you, to freely give, to surrender all...
Mystique was an invigorating experience... truly. Everyone had varied memories as to which effect is the sweetest. A wide variety... which is good. Well balanced and enough show vs interact.
A Class? Almost. Close. Soon.
As every vision comes towards completion, there comes a time of renewal. For one to move on, to see what else there is to come. Moving from glory to glory. All that we see and hear and do is through you who gives us strength, that we will be able to use these gifts for your namesake, to bless others, to shine as your light, your testimony.
Would there be a next concert? Many ask... Yes of course. But no vision as of yet... = no concert for the moment.
Would the next one be different? Yes of course... i wont want to burden my dear comm with so much work... you guys have to sit down and enjoy... really =) really want you all to share in what you all have given to help bring me thru all these. What else would be different? Effects? Yes, much more improvised. Elevated.
Pray over career, friends, relationships, family, academics. =)
Whatever you ask, you claim and you believe you have received it in full.
What this life is about... its not about me, its about You. We can plan, You will lead the way.
Surrendered Your Life Upon That Cross
How long more before we can just be like you, to freely give, to surrender all...
Mystique was an invigorating experience... truly. Everyone had varied memories as to which effect is the sweetest. A wide variety... which is good. Well balanced and enough show vs interact.
A Class? Almost. Close. Soon.
As every vision comes towards completion, there comes a time of renewal. For one to move on, to see what else there is to come. Moving from glory to glory. All that we see and hear and do is through you who gives us strength, that we will be able to use these gifts for your namesake, to bless others, to shine as your light, your testimony.
Would there be a next concert? Many ask... Yes of course. But no vision as of yet... = no concert for the moment.
Would the next one be different? Yes of course... i wont want to burden my dear comm with so much work... you guys have to sit down and enjoy... really =) really want you all to share in what you all have given to help bring me thru all these. What else would be different? Effects? Yes, much more improvised. Elevated.
Pray over career, friends, relationships, family, academics. =)
Whatever you ask, you claim and you believe you have received it in full.
What this life is about... its not about me, its about You. We can plan, You will lead the way.
Everlasting Efforts
Thought i would be this up so i could see it everytime we come back to this place, this time.
First of all, i want to say a BIG BIG THANK YOU to ALL who have helped out! Given your time and effort and hard work!!!
To Xinqin, beatrice and jaryl, you guys put up an amazing lighting and sound plan that endorsed the whole show for its glory. Without you all, the show would be a eerie blackout. and for giving up time for rehearsal, meetups and YES during the pre show, sacrificing ur dinner time!!! OMG you all shld eat noe... i got gastric problem cos of not eating last time... haha but yes i know you all really really raellly put in a LOTTTOOO WORK!!! and so friday... relax.. chill. stuff yourselves pls =) let euphoria set in =))
To Yiliang, for thinking of the publicity stunts that we can pull off, and actually pulling them off tgt, and on top of that, helping out with the set up on the last day, way beyond your scope of work. You did good photoshoot (preconcert) on top of concert photoshoot.
To hanyang and joseph, for listening to my diff dx on shooting views and what to do... and for actually carrying out the shooting on the day itself. HARD WORK!!! I know cos i can see. LOL. Yes and all the post processing, i know its freaking hard work as well. I will be there to jiayou you guys and help out... let me know k ? =)
To calvin! For such an AWESOME promo video WAY WAY WAY before the concert... and for coming down all the way to my house, do the video shoot, and then after that the editing. A LOT OF WORK WENT INTO THAT VIDEO! so many can testify! i really appreciate that! Esp it was like pretty near the ca period also!!
To wanfen, for managing the ushers and bringing ur parents and also despite your busy pros as well. =)
To WINGYEE!!!! OMG the whole backdrop wont be there if not for you ok! so you are like the backbone (+backdrop) of the show. How awesome is that. Even though you were not there to watch it personally.. i see you spray glittering the backdrop whenever i see it =) its stored in a nice manner in a nice place now.. lol. AND YES the stencils were awesome.. i am really impressed by what we can do with your stencils and spray glitter. And i have to admit, ur poster, ticket, programme booklet designs .... basically any and ALL designs of yours NEVER fail to SURPRISE and ASTOUND me. I am realy impressed and thankful that you are by my side thru all these =) and yes, thanks for being there to listen when i am down.. =)
To HUIZHONG! OMG another one... haha so sorry i bet ur telephone bills exploded with all the strangers calling u, msging you, emailing you and of course the friend who last minute reserve this and that and etc... YOU HAVE DONE A LOT! Huizhong take a short brake now before the accounting of tickets.... lol =) have a good good dinner! and yes thanks for always being there whenever i wanted to talk abt stuff. =D
somehow, i feel happy that its over. look forwards to seeing you all again!! =)
p.s. liheng and cel, thanks for holding up the loop =D
First of all, i want to say a BIG BIG THANK YOU to ALL who have helped out! Given your time and effort and hard work!!!
To Xinqin, beatrice and jaryl, you guys put up an amazing lighting and sound plan that endorsed the whole show for its glory. Without you all, the show would be a eerie blackout. and for giving up time for rehearsal, meetups and YES during the pre show, sacrificing ur dinner time!!! OMG you all shld eat noe... i got gastric problem cos of not eating last time... haha but yes i know you all really really raellly put in a LOTTTOOO WORK!!! and so friday... relax.. chill. stuff yourselves pls =) let euphoria set in =))
To Yiliang, for thinking of the publicity stunts that we can pull off, and actually pulling them off tgt, and on top of that, helping out with the set up on the last day, way beyond your scope of work. You did good photoshoot (preconcert) on top of concert photoshoot.
To hanyang and joseph, for listening to my diff dx on shooting views and what to do... and for actually carrying out the shooting on the day itself. HARD WORK!!! I know cos i can see. LOL. Yes and all the post processing, i know its freaking hard work as well. I will be there to jiayou you guys and help out... let me know k ? =)
To calvin! For such an AWESOME promo video WAY WAY WAY before the concert... and for coming down all the way to my house, do the video shoot, and then after that the editing. A LOT OF WORK WENT INTO THAT VIDEO! so many can testify! i really appreciate that! Esp it was like pretty near the ca period also!!
To wanfen, for managing the ushers and bringing ur parents and also despite your busy pros as well. =)
To WINGYEE!!!! OMG the whole backdrop wont be there if not for you ok! so you are like the backbone (+backdrop) of the show. How awesome is that. Even though you were not there to watch it personally.. i see you spray glittering the backdrop whenever i see it =) its stored in a nice manner in a nice place now.. lol. AND YES the stencils were awesome.. i am really impressed by what we can do with your stencils and spray glitter. And i have to admit, ur poster, ticket, programme booklet designs .... basically any and ALL designs of yours NEVER fail to SURPRISE and ASTOUND me. I am realy impressed and thankful that you are by my side thru all these =) and yes, thanks for being there to listen when i am down.. =)
To HUIZHONG! OMG another one... haha so sorry i bet ur telephone bills exploded with all the strangers calling u, msging you, emailing you and of course the friend who last minute reserve this and that and etc... YOU HAVE DONE A LOT! Huizhong take a short brake now before the accounting of tickets.... lol =) have a good good dinner! and yes thanks for always being there whenever i wanted to talk abt stuff. =D
somehow, i feel happy that its over. look forwards to seeing you all again!! =)
p.s. liheng and cel, thanks for holding up the loop =D
Post Mystique (Sweet)
A heart filled with thanksgiving.
You know who you are, and all of you who have really gave so much for this concert, be it before the concert, during the set up, during the concert, during the teardown. Little actions mean a lot to me =)
Thanks Father for this wonderful opportunity to touch lives with what you have given.
Thanks dad and mum for putting up with my nonsense and helping with all the props and backdrop and special requirements.
Thanks my brothers for putting up such a splendid front and being the wind beneath my wings.
Somehow, i don't feel a sense of lost, post concert. And char, i read your card. very self improvised indeed =) Jon i appreciate your gift. Andrew yien and sarah, thanks for the flowers =D I feel loved, lol. and rq thanks for the angels pose =D lol smth to rmb.
Yes but you guys, all of you who made an effort to come, to support, really touches me. I like.
Xinqin jaryl and bea! You guys really deserve a great great thank you!!! So much work was put into the lighting lor.. i can see and i know you guys are great!!! =) Must have a good dinner k.. later get gastritis.
Celeste Liheng!! when you both came up for that hoop. I felt drawn somewhat back to the time of spellbound where we worked tgt too. Thank you once again for COMING UP!! =DDD and yes CELESTE sorry for shooting so many cards towards you... my hand was numb... cant really control or feel... soorrry.. I still love both of you =) so wanted to take a photo with u guys with the hoop but celeste u zaoeedd.. haha
Anyway this record... timely reminder that we can plan.. but He will always lead the way. How much more do we not entrust unto Him?
I hope everyone of you who came brought back pleasant memories that you guys can testify to each other. And wish you all a splendid 2009. Full of nine nines...
You know who you are, and all of you who have really gave so much for this concert, be it before the concert, during the set up, during the concert, during the teardown. Little actions mean a lot to me =)
Thanks Father for this wonderful opportunity to touch lives with what you have given.
Thanks dad and mum for putting up with my nonsense and helping with all the props and backdrop and special requirements.
Thanks my brothers for putting up such a splendid front and being the wind beneath my wings.
Somehow, i don't feel a sense of lost, post concert. And char, i read your card. very self improvised indeed =) Jon i appreciate your gift. Andrew yien and sarah, thanks for the flowers =D I feel loved, lol. and rq thanks for the angels pose =D lol smth to rmb.
Yes but you guys, all of you who made an effort to come, to support, really touches me. I like.
Xinqin jaryl and bea! You guys really deserve a great great thank you!!! So much work was put into the lighting lor.. i can see and i know you guys are great!!! =) Must have a good dinner k.. later get gastritis.
Celeste Liheng!! when you both came up for that hoop. I felt drawn somewhat back to the time of spellbound where we worked tgt too. Thank you once again for COMING UP!! =DDD and yes CELESTE sorry for shooting so many cards towards you... my hand was numb... cant really control or feel... soorrry.. I still love both of you =) so wanted to take a photo with u guys with the hoop but celeste u zaoeedd.. haha
Anyway this record... timely reminder that we can plan.. but He will always lead the way. How much more do we not entrust unto Him?
I hope everyone of you who came brought back pleasant memories that you guys can testify to each other. And wish you all a splendid 2009. Full of nine nines...
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Timeless
Early morning post! Its still early, considering it will be a looong night. Probably this will be the last post before the event itself. Everything has been packed and ordered as they should be. Its all a matter of time before it begins.
It seems so near, yet so far. Time passes slowly even as I am writing this. Its as though I can see what will happen in a few hours time and all this is just lead up to it. How looong more? I question.
Would everything run smoothly? Nope. There are always hiccups here and there as from experience. BUT would the audience KNOW its a hiccup? Haha nope. Thats the best part. Showmanship derived from experience changes all hiccups into opportunities to better the performance, giving it a fresh touch, perhaps even elevating the whole performance into a new level.
How do i know it will turn out well? Cos its time to fulfill the promises in accordance to what You have said. Just like prophets fulfill their missions. Its soon time for the prophecy to pass. Vision and dreams are just a way to come even closer to You. We walk a thousand miles just to see Your face.
True. A lot of hard work and sweat went into this performance. Most of the big gadgets are all derived from time and effort and thought. Have to admit that some were constructed in this final week itself. BUT these would not change circumstances as these big props are just to bring out a majestic look and feel. Elevating normal magic performances to a mystical concert experience.
I truly wonder how many people would turn up and how many of them would actually love the performance so much such that they give a standing ovation. Many years work and practice over the routines to give tonights concert its magical touch. And yes. I wonder if there would be many lovely memories to hold to in the guestbook, pre concert rehearsal, concert time, post concert photo shoots and chat. I want to hold on to these making them a part of me that stays inside forever. To remember to remember.
Will i be injured later on? Somewhat. Throwing cards always hurt your muscles since you need a flick and sudden jerk. I am glad its only for 1 minute, but its still pretty long and taxing. Nail punctures the skin like anything... just hope that my instinct guides me well. Razor blades are sharp and can cut. Lets not cut anything else but the celery. Glass is sharp too....
How much more would i give of myself just to make this happen?
Some ppl think that its a unworthy risk to take... esp since your hands are so much more important especially when you are in such a course. Opportunity cost is high. But don't you think practice makes perfect? And what about faith? Don't you have faith?
Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
I have faith.
The time has come for the vision to come to pass, for the glory to be unto You, for the prophecy to be fulfilled... 9 hrs time
It seems so near, yet so far. Time passes slowly even as I am writing this. Its as though I can see what will happen in a few hours time and all this is just lead up to it. How looong more? I question.
Would everything run smoothly? Nope. There are always hiccups here and there as from experience. BUT would the audience KNOW its a hiccup? Haha nope. Thats the best part. Showmanship derived from experience changes all hiccups into opportunities to better the performance, giving it a fresh touch, perhaps even elevating the whole performance into a new level.
How do i know it will turn out well? Cos its time to fulfill the promises in accordance to what You have said. Just like prophets fulfill their missions. Its soon time for the prophecy to pass. Vision and dreams are just a way to come even closer to You. We walk a thousand miles just to see Your face.
True. A lot of hard work and sweat went into this performance. Most of the big gadgets are all derived from time and effort and thought. Have to admit that some were constructed in this final week itself. BUT these would not change circumstances as these big props are just to bring out a majestic look and feel. Elevating normal magic performances to a mystical concert experience.
I truly wonder how many people would turn up and how many of them would actually love the performance so much such that they give a standing ovation. Many years work and practice over the routines to give tonights concert its magical touch. And yes. I wonder if there would be many lovely memories to hold to in the guestbook, pre concert rehearsal, concert time, post concert photo shoots and chat. I want to hold on to these making them a part of me that stays inside forever. To remember to remember.
Will i be injured later on? Somewhat. Throwing cards always hurt your muscles since you need a flick and sudden jerk. I am glad its only for 1 minute, but its still pretty long and taxing. Nail punctures the skin like anything... just hope that my instinct guides me well. Razor blades are sharp and can cut. Lets not cut anything else but the celery. Glass is sharp too....
How much more would i give of myself just to make this happen?
Some ppl think that its a unworthy risk to take... esp since your hands are so much more important especially when you are in such a course. Opportunity cost is high. But don't you think practice makes perfect? And what about faith? Don't you have faith?
Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
I have faith.
The time has come for the vision to come to pass, for the glory to be unto You, for the prophecy to be fulfilled... 9 hrs time
Friday, May 15, 2009
I Know You
What does it mean to say I m really behind you? We are all behind you?
Fullest and utmost support! I love you all =) And its not that i am stressed now... i am excited but relaxed BUT all your support, my dear friends, touches me =)
Even though i know the show tm is so going to be great, but every single encouragement only serves to bring it to a higher a level, bettering the effect. Even though some of you cannot make it, debo, sonia, hulz, yk, and all, i really really still appreciate all your support spiritually =)
HUIYI!! of all times and places suddenly you would appear tm! lol. Long time no see, see you tm!
cant believe i slept for 13 hrs today. but pre concert sleep is always good.
Bea Xq Jaryl, will be praying for you 3 to be able to do it so smoothly and for perfect health tm. I know you guys will =)
Calvin! I wont disappoint all the hard work you put into making the video. I will make it reality =)
I Could See In The Distance
You Have Arrested Me
I Put My Trust In You
As I Look Beyond Today....
I Was Meant To Be In The Arms Of Your Affection
I Am Moving On To The Place Of Your Perfection
I Do Not Belong Here.
Friends, pray for safety over Instinct & Razor Blade Swallowing.
Dying to become more like You.
Fullest and utmost support! I love you all =) And its not that i am stressed now... i am excited but relaxed BUT all your support, my dear friends, touches me =)
Even though i know the show tm is so going to be great, but every single encouragement only serves to bring it to a higher a level, bettering the effect. Even though some of you cannot make it, debo, sonia, hulz, yk, and all, i really really still appreciate all your support spiritually =)
HUIYI!! of all times and places suddenly you would appear tm! lol. Long time no see, see you tm!
cant believe i slept for 13 hrs today. but pre concert sleep is always good.
Bea Xq Jaryl, will be praying for you 3 to be able to do it so smoothly and for perfect health tm. I know you guys will =)
Calvin! I wont disappoint all the hard work you put into making the video. I will make it reality =)
I Could See In The Distance
You Have Arrested Me
I Put My Trust In You
As I Look Beyond Today....
I Was Meant To Be In The Arms Of Your Affection
I Am Moving On To The Place Of Your Perfection
I Do Not Belong Here.
Friends, pray for safety over Instinct & Razor Blade Swallowing.
Dying to become more like You.
30 Hrs
This time tm, will be loading all the stuff into the car... and will prob head towards the venue at 3.45.
Not much to be said... just excited. Its probably time to feel the mood in 30 hrs time. Nervous? Not really. More of Excited! Post Concert... i promise you all that this will be different from Spellbound. Much much awesome!
Touching Heaven. Changing Earth. Just remembered that some fine details still need to be done... mmm mm
"I Walk A Thousand Miles Just To See Your Face" - Syros
Not much to be said... just excited. Its probably time to feel the mood in 30 hrs time. Nervous? Not really. More of Excited! Post Concert... i promise you all that this will be different from Spellbound. Much much awesome!
Touching Heaven. Changing Earth. Just remembered that some fine details still need to be done... mmm mm
"I Walk A Thousand Miles Just To See Your Face" - Syros
Thursday, May 14, 2009
La Passione
Yes i want to remember how it feels 2 days before the concert itself. The 2nd one, the one we know it will truly showcase the essence of essences. Rocks.
Tm shall be the last mileage, stepping up the practice, moving up in keeping with what needs to be done and what has to be done. Rehearsal tm? Prob. We try a full run thru. Yea that's it. What else is there to think about at a point like this?
So close yet it seems so far to completion. You ask whether i was nervous a few days ago. I said no. Now? Perhaps a bit. A feeling of anticipation rather. Waiting to see what will happen, and what got to happen. May everything flow in the way it shall flow.
Yes and thanks to my dear brother who reminded me not to remake the same mistakes of that first concert. I know and understand. Happening... sooon. i shall not countdown today.... Mystique Phenomenon.
Tm shall be the last mileage, stepping up the practice, moving up in keeping with what needs to be done and what has to be done. Rehearsal tm? Prob. We try a full run thru. Yea that's it. What else is there to think about at a point like this?
So close yet it seems so far to completion. You ask whether i was nervous a few days ago. I said no. Now? Perhaps a bit. A feeling of anticipation rather. Waiting to see what will happen, and what got to happen. May everything flow in the way it shall flow.
Yes and thanks to my dear brother who reminded me not to remake the same mistakes of that first concert. I know and understand. Happening... sooon. i shall not countdown today.... Mystique Phenomenon.
Purity
Creating a pure heart.
Purity is power. Purity is sanctified. Purity is valued above all.
How often do ppl succumb to stuff that they know its morally wrong? Many do... Everywhere.
Are we indeed different? We try. We discipline ourselves that we do the stuff we know. Through every single daily action, we act upon the word, the truth in every phase of time. We seek answers that we do not know, we embrace them when we find them. We cast habits aside when we see that its not good. We change.
Evolution rocks, don' you think? It makes us stronger.
Purity is power. Purity is sanctified. Purity is valued above all.
How often do ppl succumb to stuff that they know its morally wrong? Many do... Everywhere.
Are we indeed different? We try. We discipline ourselves that we do the stuff we know. Through every single daily action, we act upon the word, the truth in every phase of time. We seek answers that we do not know, we embrace them when we find them. We cast habits aside when we see that its not good. We change.
Evolution rocks, don' you think? It makes us stronger.
Palpation
Surgery is all about palpation... more so than medicine. More so than percussion (or auscultation). Kind of cool. A whole new aspect and take on approach to patients.
Firm.... hard ... cystic... consistency.. ok i think i shall list it in order. Just for rememberance sake taught by our dear Dr Tan Jin smth... i am sorry i forgot. BUT YOU ARE A NICE GUY TOO!
Lets see what i can remember... SECTOR!!!
S: Size Shape Site
E: Edge
C: Consistency Color
T: Temperature Texture
O: Others (Transillum...)
R: Reducibility
OMG i din bring the dumb book back... ok some stuff are missing but its alright...
2 more days to both things =)
See you guys on mystique itself. & yes, sign the guestbook...
Firm.... hard ... cystic... consistency.. ok i think i shall list it in order. Just for rememberance sake taught by our dear Dr Tan Jin smth... i am sorry i forgot. BUT YOU ARE A NICE GUY TOO!
Lets see what i can remember... SECTOR!!!
S: Size Shape Site
E: Edge
C: Consistency Color
T: Temperature Texture
O: Others (Transillum...)
R: Reducibility
OMG i din bring the dumb book back... ok some stuff are missing but its alright...
2 more days to both things =)
See you guys on mystique itself. & yes, sign the guestbook...
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Mystical Thoughts
Syros = Magic = Mentalism
Spray Paint + Cloth + Stencil = I like
Ever wondered what is the record number of cards we are gonna hit on the day itself? I haven been training... BUT its gonna happen... i know cos i threw last time... HAHA. so make a guess between 80 - 140. 1 minute for X no. of cards.
Personally i think it would be a nice number of 101. Like dalmatians like that. Anything above is a bonus.
Isnt it ironic how i could suddenly disappear from your life just like that? A magician's choice. But its only 1 week =) Dun be adversely affected... i just need time to think and reflect.
Spray Paint + Cloth + Stencil = I like
Ever wondered what is the record number of cards we are gonna hit on the day itself? I haven been training... BUT its gonna happen... i know cos i threw last time... HAHA. so make a guess between 80 - 140. 1 minute for X no. of cards.
Personally i think it would be a nice number of 101. Like dalmatians like that. Anything above is a bonus.
Isnt it ironic how i could suddenly disappear from your life just like that? A magician's choice. But its only 1 week =) Dun be adversely affected... i just need time to think and reflect.
Perspectives
Different ppl, different perspectives. See things from others point of view and understand what they think, how they feel, realise how our actions impact them, know what we could do to help them.
Did i ever see from your perspective? Yes. Perhaps too much last time. So much so that my own perspective was lost in the ocean of thoughts, just thinking abt you. Stepping back gives a clearer picture. Knowing and seeing from both perspectives and that of God. What does he see again? I ask. Only time would tell. Revelations only happen at a specified time. And perhaps the time is not now, yet.
Mystique is freaking coming! Coolness... we go to hospital just to go home early. LOL. Famous quote from a dear surgeon. Other than work... Chill. Thanks, oh but cant deny he's cleared the whole concept of memorising and deduction by systems classification. Pro-ness.
When you all see the backdrop... u can see how much effort me and wing put into it. This piece.. actually pieces of cloth that we did up so amazingly with a couple of cans of spray glitter... and paint (now this was my idea, esp since the glitter paint did not last). Tickets sales should turn out fine. I must say a BIG THANK YOU to my DEAR FRIENDS who EMAILED immediately after the call for action. Really thankful for all the support you guys are giving. I am touched =) and happy. =)
I must say i haven really been browsing my browse.. but this crazy speed reading technique is awesome... Just imagine so many pages of stuff to cram all taken in within the short span of a physical exam which lasts less than 5 mins esp since the HO does it so quickly =) pro pro... i like. Oh yes! Dr Alfred Wong! We are so going to miss you! You have been one of the best HOs around and we all love you for all that you have given so freely. (out of your lunch time and slacking time) And yes u have an amazingly nice accent =) Sleek!
Oh did i mention why i wanted to start a blog? To follow my life? Yup, such that when i am old and haggard or when i am down, i can actually look back and see this bank of memories flood back to me... even with Alzheimer's i would want to remember that i led a life thats fulfilling... and not wasted... not in the hands of video games or crap...
Wonder what would the feeling at mystique be like... wonder what post mystique would feel. Would i be feeling lost again like spellbound?
XINQIN! I suddenly rmb our dance rehearsals for spellbound as though it was like yesterday.... how interesting... memories flash back so fast... yet sooo long ago... would u be there? yes u would for sound and lighting =) cool. THANKS!!! i would have died if not for ur help last time... AND this time too =)
Did i ever see from your perspective? Yes. Perhaps too much last time. So much so that my own perspective was lost in the ocean of thoughts, just thinking abt you. Stepping back gives a clearer picture. Knowing and seeing from both perspectives and that of God. What does he see again? I ask. Only time would tell. Revelations only happen at a specified time. And perhaps the time is not now, yet.
Mystique is freaking coming! Coolness... we go to hospital just to go home early. LOL. Famous quote from a dear surgeon. Other than work... Chill. Thanks, oh but cant deny he's cleared the whole concept of memorising and deduction by systems classification. Pro-ness.
When you all see the backdrop... u can see how much effort me and wing put into it. This piece.. actually pieces of cloth that we did up so amazingly with a couple of cans of spray glitter... and paint (now this was my idea, esp since the glitter paint did not last). Tickets sales should turn out fine. I must say a BIG THANK YOU to my DEAR FRIENDS who EMAILED immediately after the call for action. Really thankful for all the support you guys are giving. I am touched =) and happy. =)
I must say i haven really been browsing my browse.. but this crazy speed reading technique is awesome... Just imagine so many pages of stuff to cram all taken in within the short span of a physical exam which lasts less than 5 mins esp since the HO does it so quickly =) pro pro... i like. Oh yes! Dr Alfred Wong! We are so going to miss you! You have been one of the best HOs around and we all love you for all that you have given so freely. (out of your lunch time and slacking time) And yes u have an amazingly nice accent =) Sleek!
Oh did i mention why i wanted to start a blog? To follow my life? Yup, such that when i am old and haggard or when i am down, i can actually look back and see this bank of memories flood back to me... even with Alzheimer's i would want to remember that i led a life thats fulfilling... and not wasted... not in the hands of video games or crap...
Wonder what would the feeling at mystique be like... wonder what post mystique would feel. Would i be feeling lost again like spellbound?
XINQIN! I suddenly rmb our dance rehearsals for spellbound as though it was like yesterday.... how interesting... memories flash back so fast... yet sooo long ago... would u be there? yes u would for sound and lighting =) cool. THANKS!!! i would have died if not for ur help last time... AND this time too =)
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Love =)
Letting your love surround me... =)
Thanks for the reminder that whenever we look at patients, we are looking at a soul who is in physical need, rather than just a procedure that we go through for physical exam...
Power comes with responsibility. How often is that phrase mentioned ever since spiderman. But yes, its pretty true. Being able to create this kind of magic at such a level, misusing this could turn pretty nasty.
Touched by the kindness of a neighbour who gave freely in spite of unavailability to attend the concert. Sudden, yet impactful. Timely reminders are good to have. =)
Could we ever create a world without tears? Tears of sorrow can be eliminated.... depends on how much we give out of ourselves.... depends on how every mindset changes... Possible? Someday, yes.
A delayed post for the reaffirmed feeling i felt yesterday towards ppl who have leprosy, who are in need. Imagine how a leper, who no longer has feeling in his distal extremities, reaching out to you with whats left of him... his face covered with lepromatous leprosy, lumps and bumps, with areas necrosed beyond recognition, you would wonder if that was actually... human. Would you know that he was once alright as well? Just like you and me? Nope, you would never see it that way cos man cannot look beyond looks. Vision overrides everything else. Ever wondered when was the last time his rotting hands were touched by a human touch? Months? Years? Tens of years maybe? I was touched... were you?
Teach us Father, to have this compassion for others who are sick. Not to view them just as they are... maybe they could be struggling to breathe, struggling in pain, afflicted beyond recognition, BUT teach us. Let us remember who they once were, who they are to their family, a mother? a father? They are people like us... teach us to reach out. help. beyond. what the eyes sees. the judgement of the eyes.
Thanks for the reminder that whenever we look at patients, we are looking at a soul who is in physical need, rather than just a procedure that we go through for physical exam...
Power comes with responsibility. How often is that phrase mentioned ever since spiderman. But yes, its pretty true. Being able to create this kind of magic at such a level, misusing this could turn pretty nasty.
Touched by the kindness of a neighbour who gave freely in spite of unavailability to attend the concert. Sudden, yet impactful. Timely reminders are good to have. =)
Could we ever create a world without tears? Tears of sorrow can be eliminated.... depends on how much we give out of ourselves.... depends on how every mindset changes... Possible? Someday, yes.
A delayed post for the reaffirmed feeling i felt yesterday towards ppl who have leprosy, who are in need. Imagine how a leper, who no longer has feeling in his distal extremities, reaching out to you with whats left of him... his face covered with lepromatous leprosy, lumps and bumps, with areas necrosed beyond recognition, you would wonder if that was actually... human. Would you know that he was once alright as well? Just like you and me? Nope, you would never see it that way cos man cannot look beyond looks. Vision overrides everything else. Ever wondered when was the last time his rotting hands were touched by a human touch? Months? Years? Tens of years maybe? I was touched... were you?
Teach us Father, to have this compassion for others who are sick. Not to view them just as they are... maybe they could be struggling to breathe, struggling in pain, afflicted beyond recognition, BUT teach us. Let us remember who they once were, who they are to their family, a mother? a father? They are people like us... teach us to reach out. help. beyond. what the eyes sees. the judgement of the eyes.
New Day
TIRED!! total crap.... waking up at 6.25am is no joke. But yea, we still slogged through what we had to do in cgh and yes, luckily it was a short day, or at least we made it short =D
Last final lap for mystique... prayer + sprays...
#1 Ticket Sales to finally turn out alright, i think we still have approx 80, and thus hope that all the orders could be finalised asap (ie ppl are still deciding..)
#2 Health for the production team, namely, Jaryl Cheng, Xin Qin, Beatrice Ng to be maintained at tip top condition and that no sickness would afflict them in this point of time.
#3 Health for myself as i am still settling the misc minor stuff.. backdrop, final touchups.... i dun want to fall sick =( haha
#4 Mood for the concert to fully portray each effect in its full glory, for His glory. Letting this concert be a starting point for quite a no. of friends that my christian friends have been reaching out to as well.
how much longer will we falter between 2 opinions? not any longer =)
4 more days... btw HAPPY BDAY BEATRICE! if you are reading this =) haha and ur advice on fdr is well taken =)
Last final lap for mystique... prayer + sprays...
#1 Ticket Sales to finally turn out alright, i think we still have approx 80, and thus hope that all the orders could be finalised asap (ie ppl are still deciding..)
#2 Health for the production team, namely, Jaryl Cheng, Xin Qin, Beatrice Ng to be maintained at tip top condition and that no sickness would afflict them in this point of time.
#3 Health for myself as i am still settling the misc minor stuff.. backdrop, final touchups.... i dun want to fall sick =( haha
#4 Mood for the concert to fully portray each effect in its full glory, for His glory. Letting this concert be a starting point for quite a no. of friends that my christian friends have been reaching out to as well.
how much longer will we falter between 2 opinions? not any longer =)
4 more days... btw HAPPY BDAY BEATRICE! if you are reading this =) haha and ur advice on fdr is well taken =)
Monday, May 11, 2009
Mystique & You
Its nice to know that everything for this project is coming up really well. Especially all the preparations, though last minute, its only minor details to be settled. Quality of the show would thus still be maintained... showcasing more than just a professional repertoire of effects, but on top of that, being able to bring the show to the standard of a complete one with the show's final effect redeeming the whole show as one. Be mystified!
On a side note, first post? yes. Putting down thoughts as words seems to be much easier than speaking those thoughts deep down inside, out. Everything happens for a reason, to make us persevere, so that we could overcome, to be mature and complete and find new meaning, or actually, more of reinforced meaning in life.
Hope you would understand that its not just time that i need for now, its more of solitude, the solitude to be able to see things objectively, and not be shrouded by emotions. I will learn what you said, as He would like me to. A relationship that is founded upon no base in christ brings around no common point of reference, which will disintegrate. I wont want what i ask of you today to hinder your walk. Today is but just a point in time, seek eternity. Only time would tell how it turns out. As it is, i still think of you today. Does sharing with others how i feel help? Yes it did, a lot. =)
On a side note, first post? yes. Putting down thoughts as words seems to be much easier than speaking those thoughts deep down inside, out. Everything happens for a reason, to make us persevere, so that we could overcome, to be mature and complete and find new meaning, or actually, more of reinforced meaning in life.
Hope you would understand that its not just time that i need for now, its more of solitude, the solitude to be able to see things objectively, and not be shrouded by emotions. I will learn what you said, as He would like me to. A relationship that is founded upon no base in christ brings around no common point of reference, which will disintegrate. I wont want what i ask of you today to hinder your walk. Today is but just a point in time, seek eternity. Only time would tell how it turns out. As it is, i still think of you today. Does sharing with others how i feel help? Yes it did, a lot. =)
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