Playhouse

One of the most awesome events of the whole year. Must admit that it really touched me to see so many of our batch mates come together in unity sharing a common vision. With unity comes power =)

To all who helped out and slogged so much for the success on sat, kudos to you guys! the sets were awesome, the acting was perfect, the script was well written, play was excellently directed. Amazing work =) couldnt have asked for a better play to watch!

Thank God we won too heh!

Bugs

Think this is one of the places i always come back when i have something on my mind..

Haiz... sometimes things just don't happen the way it should happen.... what can man do?
Kind of sad actually... you din turn up when you should have... just saw my sd card blow up with all the photos inside =( char i lost all your egg videos leh ... so sad... you need to crack more eggs for me liao...

ahh... i know not what tm holds... paeds is so tiring... case writeups due next week... haiz... the only thing to really relish is cmdf dinner this sat...

perhaps i should have let you go 3 weeks ago. no expectations no disappointment.

word of the month: let go, let God.

and yes i do have something to be happy and thankful about, think a iphone 4 is coming! =D and ummm yea thank God for all the doors that are open in front of me right now, ntu, vietnamese community, and let that which has to come, just come to pass. will be ready =)

i still like kids when they dun cry... thank god for settling electives =D

Promise

Seems like its been so long since i last visited this place. Studies, shows, friends, meetings... what have we? Life is full of all these.

Anw i guess i only come here when i really have something to talk about that is meaningful to me.

I thought about it. The thing that you did that touched me most was the way you offered your help so willingly and just being able to treat people for who they are, or perhaps regardless of who they are. Interesting as well that you looked so much like another person that i know and hanged out with.

Seem like things may change in this year of 2010. Few more weeks till oct ends! We shall see what happens then! =)

On a side note, kindness has never been so touching before, touched my life, change my life, created a good memory. Now we spread that to others, touch their lives, change them, create memories worth reminiscing about, for them.

You send me out to touch the sky. I will.

Live Life to The Max

What you can see, what you can do goes beyond what it is right now...

Open your eyes, open your heart, open your mind to see and understand the things unseen.

Delve into the world of supernatural and experience what life really offers.

Let my hands create what it hasn't created, let my life experience what it has never experienced.

Live the life you've always wanted. =)

Prayer

My prayer for them is that they would be able to live a healthy life, one that is fulfilling enough that they can say that i am happy. That they will be able to live without that financial worry drowning their thoughts. Let their eyes see my world, understand my joy, feel my love. Everytime you shed a tear, i shed a tear with you.

The world will only be a better place only if we see what it is now, and use our heart to change it.

Touch

Touch people, touch lives, touch hearts... touch of christ.

To Live

To live a life to benefit others. To live a life to create change in society.

When medicine and magic comes together = ....

Passion

All great things birth from one word - passion. What makes it different now is that you already have all you need to take the big step out. To have been carried so far up is not to be dropped down, but only to be lifted higher.

What charity magic concerts used to do, can now go beyond and do so much more, in ways that we do not even fathom, but we have faith.

Empathy

Was i glad that i did not turn sarcastic or flare up at that remark....

If i had been through what you have been through, i guess i probably would be even more down than what you are now...

Sometimes stories turn into real life situations..

Praying for you. And its ok if you want to be mean to me, strict, etc, its perfectly alright. I understand what you are going through and probably thats why you demand such high standards... I would too if i were you.

Feeling

Understood. I know what you mean.

Loving People

To have an overwhelming acceptance for everybody, seeing each person as a 10 upon 10.
To listen more to others as paying attention shows a person worth.
To have empathy and look beneath what other people are going through and listen to their heart.
To be real and transparent. Sometimes, oneself's need is a gift to somebody else.
To have encompassing forgiveness, to release the right to get back at others.
To give encouragement and loving confrontation.

New Phone

=)!

Your Qn

Why? Good qn, high standards, and a reluctance to give up other priorities.

Why? Cos when you are young, its the time to make or break your destiny.

Why? Cos there's always someone out there who will eventually be the one.

Or maybe, its just that i haven chosen to let go fully...

I don't even understand fully...

=)

A good word makes the heart glad. A good movie makes the mind happy =)

Letting Go

Holding on to so many things is just so tiring sometimes...

Questions like "what if...?" , "then how?", "was what i did right?", "so what will you think?"

So many things... so tired. It just doesnt feel right to carry so much on ones shoulders...

Lifting all in your hands... and just guide my path however the outcome. I will flow with you...

Tired from compilation, from running around, from peoples expectations, from commitments, from a lot... or just actually... venting some tiredness frustration... i dun noe... i can just crash and sleep...

Silent Commitment

To know exactly where we are headed in this walk of medicine. To know exactly who we want to model ourselves after. To know exactly how we want to change society, heal hearts, and touch lives.

To have clean hands, and a pure heart, to touch the needy, ignite hope for the lost, heal the sick, revive the unconcious, comfort to the worried... Your prayer was powerful.

Let every patient we come across have a constant prayer too.

What it Means

This is the time that one actually realises what it means to be a doctor.

To have clean hands and a pure heart, to deliver that healing touch to those in need. 2 more weeks till end of e med, 2 more years till end of student life. Time flies, knowledge accumulates.

Anw ambulance run was a spectrum. Totally.

Emergency

Really liked it. Prob cos of the fact that what you learn is of a broad scope that will enable you to know how to administer therapy to others when they really need it.. Then again, back side is that mistakes come with direct repercussions... Man you really got to be good in this... plug, catheter, cpr... etc time to be highly proficient in all these things.... Its a thin line between therapeutic and toxic..

Anw. Ambulance run was good. One word that kept resurfacing when offering my help... Responsibility. Each of them had this same response.

"Its my responsibility."

Wow. Awesome la. That sort of spirit is worth developing and having. =)

Side note. Tm is FIC. Blast 2 shows in 1 days... 10 decks of cards... a bit wasteful but okay la...

Reorder

Priorities in Life. After so much happened... time to re order priorities... for at least... the later half of 2010.

Be a good doctor (academically, clinically, morally)
Be a good son
Be a good magician (supporting the community)
Be a good cgl
Be a good investor

Live a life for Christ. 5 things for now. 1 is unmentioned. We see how.

Spectrum

What a thing to witness. Spectrum.

Last week was an absolutely fantastical experience for ENT. Tutors were amazingly nice and even the not nice ones din really give us trouble. Stark contrast with this week... isnt it? Pretty bad... kills my mood to learn...

Now i get what you mean when the tutor makes you feel stupid... These tutors shld just quite la k... lousy is a overestimate for them.

Just imagine comments like ' Eh you need to get smarter... oh you are smarter by the minute..." den after that he goes into his own realm of talk garb... 'so what is the one thing you need to think of? No... no ... no .. no' series of no s then later he fills in his own simple answer seemingly super smart... =_=

Oh wells... if i ever become a tutor this will definitely not be what i will become.. you never know when you will demoralise someone who is almost on the verge of giving up...

Be a source of encouragement to all around you. That they see joy, peace and love from you.

Uplifted

All that i can hold in my hands, i submit into yours. Running never fails to make me run to you. Re orientate myself within the circumstances that i have been placed in ...admidst all the different wonderings and issues.

Reflection.

So much that has been prayed for, and so much that i have received. Medicine is a large part of my life, so is magic. Wont let either passion fade....

Youth Olympics... One Moment of Glory...

We wonder where all these lead to... it seems as though the vision from 2008 is starting to take shape. Coming in forms that i can never fathom. Amazing.

July and August will be a hectic period... Balance is key...

Bless my health
Bless my emotions
Bless my walk.

Strength. Wisdom. Clarity. Passion.

Fast

Somehow... somehow. All happened so fast.

And yes, its good to know that with practice all can happen at such a speed that is beyond what one can imagine. Possible for real magic to take place?

Yes. Based on super hyper sensitive judgement to create the effect.

Lets try and get these 2 skills done before we finish august... =)

Amazing.

Fasthow...

Somehow... some

=)

Live a life with God inside and you will not regret one moment of it.

Your smile i can never forget... at least... for now.

Come Back

Coming back to where we left off last time... after one is built up even further.

Face it off dude.

What cant kill you only makes you stronger!

Load

That i realise that this is what i turn towards in the times of sadness... to just get my mind off things... and perhaps advocate a good time of silence for gaps to close and heat to dissipate...

Beautiful creations... Loads of time... Lifetime of work..

Faded

Yes you look back at the past few years of your life and time seems to have faded away from the equation of life. It felt like just yesterday that I was still in bali... still studying for exam.... still waiting for my first anat prac... still preparing for the first concert...

My my, time flies. and yes...
1.7 years since the first concert, its become perfected now....
2.5 years of following Christ...
3 years since inception into medical school...
5 years ago i was still in JC... like a kid...

wow... time flies.

Ask me whether i regretted my 1.7 , 2.5, 3, 5 years... I don't. Though its not perfect... but i don't regret it. Everything has sort of fell sorta in place to make the me today. So many things that we strive for at that time now on hindsight, was just a passing thing.

Think O levels, A levels, CCA points, community service hours, training, shows, relationships, homework... problems? They sure seemed to be obstacles at that point of time... yet now that we look back. They are ever sooo small... We made it!

Ps 90: 12
So teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.

Time flies. Lord teach us to look forward, and not get caught up in the past, for the destiny is ahead, not behind. =)

Wait

Today was the first time to have waited for 1 person for this long. 1 hr. Fully. Just for the person, even after numerous phone calls. Remarkable. Still... at that point of the 30 min mark, felt pissed and about to leave, but... felt that perhaps she had something on that was really urgent, and couldnt pick up the call/ come down... well... time was channelled to reading. Somehow.

Phil 4 :8... rings a bell doesnt it?

Somehow my esword opened up to phil by itself. How nice.

Anyway, one thing that was clear as a good reminder as well, was that of

Phil 3: 13
Forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead.
I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

Yes isn't it impt, and true, to let go of the past... be it the past 1 week, 1 month, 1 year, or even the past few years. To let go of things that may have hurt. Such that one would have more room to move on, to have the heart to accomodate what is in store in the future. The future is a glowing one... day after day we draw nearer to being who we are supposed to be, who we really are in destiny. I look to that.

Time passes by....

Phil 4:8
Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy, meditate on these things.
The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.

What a timely reminder. Somehow all the negative thoughts of waiting were just swept out of the mind. To know and understand, this is the living word and what life is really about. To think these things, to do these things.

When body, mind and soul align and flow.... we wait to see to be moulded to be and to do like you.

2 more days

It all went very well! Everything is in place and all the effects are great! Keep in prayer for health and wisdom! =)

See you, thou who are coming, pls stay for a photo shoot after that.

What

Who is to judge what is good and what is bad...

Things may not be turning out exactly well for you but hey... look around you, there are other people who are having a FAR harder time than you. If you think that what you are going through right now is tough... dude, open your eyes and i can show you the world. Look and see. People who are affected, be it physically, mentally or emotionally. Look at them. Some have to struggle to fight for a meal, some have to undergo wayyy disproportionate level of efforts to even manage a normal activity of daily life, maybe... walking? Thought about it?

And we just sit here, walk there, worrying about our own little problem, when we know for certain we do not have to worry about our next meal, we do not have to worry about where we lay our heads next, we do not have to worry about whether what the future would be good to us.

Psalms 73: 21
Thus my heart was grieved, And I was vexed in my mind.
I was so foolish and ignorant, I was like a beast before You.

Take a step back.... Look at what you are facing again. Is it EVEN close, to what certain others have to go through, have to stand up to, have to struggle through? Absolutely not.

After we realise the biggg picture
It continues...
Nevertheless I am continually with You.
You hold me by your right hand.
You will guide me with Your counsel.
And afterward receive me to glory.

All that I have in me I give thanks and praise. For your right hand (the stronger of the 2) protects and shields me, holding me everyday, that should I fall, You will lift me up once again. Should I be faced with challenges, Your holy spirit comes swiftly stepping in, lifting me beyond the troubles, that I can see with your wisdom and decide according to Your will. That I know, this life that you have blessed all of us with, one that is free from sickness, disability, poverty and harm, is one that we will live to glorify Your kingdom, and Your name.


Lord Hold Passion In Your Right Hand.

Grace

You called! =) how nice la...really great to have all these encouragement surround one when the going gets tough. THANK YOU!!

Still, ortho isnt really as tough as i thought it out to be. Somehow still can have time to pack here and there and even play a bit of cards and games. Orthobots is not completely finished the 2nd round, but its ok, i dun feel the urge to finish it that fast. Somehow, it seems as though osce will be a test we ALL breeze through. Come what pe what slides... it will all be settled la.

Okayys back to Grace. More than just your name! After gg through so much of medicine, somehow you know that it is truly by grace that we live, that we can live to breathe the next day, that we can crawl out of bed alive and kicking after each long slumberous night. It is only by grace that we can walk normally, that we can eat normally, and from a more ortho perspective, that we can have no neuro deficit, that respective myotome and dermatome can function as they should. (ie i want to lift my hand, my hand lifts!)

Nice isnt it? Yet it also makes one ponder what about the others who suffer. Maybe one day... i will be like him? Getting a nerve palsy. What would happen then? What would i do? How do i cope? A functional deficit? How?

Ortho was an eye opener in some aspects. You see people ### day in and day out. People come in with ray amputations... and to be ray amputated... nerve palsies.... etc etc. Makes you wonder how they cope with the functional deficit ...

Anw premorbidly, the only logical thing that we can do is give thanks. Give thanks for this grace upon our lives up till now and ongoing, that your holy hand will hold us and protect us.

Morbid thought for a moment. But still thanksgiving overrides!

Touch of God

That when i stand here and look objectively at the whole picture. Yes i need a touch from heaven. There's absolutely no way that it will be full house. I don't know why i cannot have more faith to trust in You completely.. but isnt it true that faith alone without actions is futile words?

Even when actions have been taken, the concept of seedtime and harvest dwells in my mind and look. I am looking and i dont think that the harvest will come so fast. Why do you doubt? Do you not have faith? Heb 11:1 flashes across really quickly.

Why? Thurs there's a talk. Do you think a touch from heaven will come down straight this week? I am waiting. Open. Having second thoughts. Running backup measures.

Still. James 1. Perseverance. Come what may... man we will handle it tgt la.. come come.

Why.

The question is always why?

Why do you do what you do?
Why now?
Why everything turns out like that?
Why do i have to keep doing it?

My my... this sounds like pre concert MDD. Goodness... its only 2 weeks left. VIP seats are almost all taken up.. like maybe (2 left?) come monday and they will all be gone..

RI sales are like so so... hope all goes well there.. how much can i do to check on them?

Rehearsals are draining my life bit by bit... together with LOOONG hospital days. Think its time to just take a break and stay at home to study osce... still the whole programme for the night looks absolutely fantastic... talk about well rehearsed... mentalism has never been so well rehearsed before... seemed pretty scary. If you haven heard about it... sy is only performing for around 45 mins (open + close + some crazy stuff). Yes it is crazily jam packed this time... letting everything happen so fast, effects after effects.. how not to be stunned... think i will have a sore throat after the concert as usual... 110% ppl may say? Think i am giving it 150%... heh thats the lower limit.

Oh yes how i love to ramble... thank god osce is not super early morning... that wld be nuts. Right think can finish osce.. lunch... rest... den start the prep there.

2 MORE WEEKS OH MY! None other concerts have felt like this before... wonder why... maybe cos its the last one that we are org, or may its due to the fact that i am giving it sooo much effort. I wonder what happens on the day...

FYI rehearsals videos may be posted on 27may... welll dpding on free time... actually think they wont, will be more bz reviewing.

Right.thats it. Back to why... haha. Ans is in the concert title ... Passion.

Yes You

There's no running away or backing out at this point. Only one thing is for sure. The future is awesome and holds so much within. And its totally up to us to unravel every part of it.

Trust and find the light in the darkness. Being pulled by hope than drawn by fear...

If You Are Praying

Passion Concert
For the ticketing to go well, in RI especially.
For energy and wisdom in committee members who are juggling academics and this project.
For passion and dedication in RI students as they go about promoting this show.
For the performers in the show to have showmanship and confidence.
For sound and lighting to be ever so on cue.
For the funds raised to exceed beyond what we can imagine.
For World Vision to be known by more people and aided by more people.

For Me.
That i can juggle all the happenings around me, eopt vs concert.
That i can fully internalize every segment within the concert.
That the concert will reflect the exact passion that is within since 8 years ago.
That i can have enough energy and strength to deliver 110% on the day itself.
That my friends who come can be blessed in a special way.
That this last one will be the best it can be.

That this vision, this project, will come to pass like how You planned it out to be.
Ordain my steps.

Passion

29 More DAYS!

Think even as it draws nearer my mind is half divided betw this and med. Still, this time all the preparation is more than sufficient... actually abundantly abundant. Can't believe we actually put in so many rehearsals for this .. quite kiasu but yes... guess it ensures that everything will run smoothly.

Remember the last open one that we organised was around last year in the same time. Feels like an anniversary for Mystique. Cool. The way it is done this time is totally different from the past. New props. New script. New experience. New show. New Passion.

New touch from heaven. =)

Father ordain my steps that i may follow in your will.

Last day of cgh is absolutely fun =) Gg sgh soon...

1 & A Half Years

Looking back, yes its been one and a half years ever since spellbound. So much happened within this one and a half years. Finished 2 years of studies... 2 more years to go.

Don't you wonder where all this would end up next time? Reb you are right, i did find it really challenging to manage both of these positions simultaneously... so much expectation from others for each of it as well.. Still, i hope to be able to do both.. tgt.

One thing that really struck me yesterday was that when we were just standing there. Talking.

"I am magic."

"Show me"

*Pause ... long pause.

Show me.... yes. Thats the missing ingredient i think, throughout this long period where one just focused on studies. Have really missed out on part of what makes me who i am.

* Resumes

"Right if you were to think of something like kinetic energy... ..."

Showed. Visibly impressed. Am happy too that its a great reminder that magic has to be omnipresent. And that even if you are a stage worker, close up, never give it up. Such intimate intricacies are always worth working for.

A New Show. Passion. Fantastically Awesome. Enough said... 8 rehearsals + 2 Full Dress = Phenomenal.

Tech Day

Crazy day... long + tiring.

Still its good that most of it is done. Hope all goes well on 25 27 29... =)

Ordain My Steps

That i can follow on your path as you want me to.

What has been said has already been given.
To have peace, promise, passion, potential, picture and purpose.

Smile

Everyone looks pretty when they smile.

A smile connects directly with other ppl. Smile more often. Connections form. You will feel happier doing your passion... will make you smile more too =)))))

Lead Me Through

Even as so many things come caving in one thing that becomes really significant is that i do not want to live a life of regret. People make mistakes when they are young, especially by doing what they are not supposed to do, or not doing what they should do.

Well... it comes with a heavy price.. really, at least for now. Still, if you extrapolate.. making a mistake now is better than making a mistake next time where all that is involved is exponential.

Youth is for one to learn all that he can. Spend it wisely and one day you will look back and see it is all worth it.

Lead me through lord.

Then. Now. Next time.

Looking back at the past. Looking at right now. Wonder what comes next time...

Thank You

Thankful that i have such supportive friends! Really... =)

Thank you lord.

Passion Burns

Think when it starts, the passion overwhelms and causes you to be ever so motivated and productive in achieving all that is to be done.

Pretty cool.. Tech run is 23rd... so soon!

Passion

Yet all i feel right now is this...

Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what was promised.

When awesomeness floods in... =D

Define Passion

Passion is

Seen in the Eye
Formed in the Heart
Birthed from the Soul


The amount of work that you all put in to achieve this is absolutely remarkable. Perhaps if i match up to that... it will be a blast. And yes it will be a blast. =)

Why...

The amount of work for this passion is pretty crazy... why do i do what i do....

needs a break... still must rush it out for thursday.... =S

World Water Day

Mm... yes it made me realise that even if one has hit 10000 hours.. it doesnt change... you still need practice for what you want to do, esp if its new stuff... Yup it was good still, but din clear the distinction mark.

Rmb how professional it became after u put in a couple more hours scripting and practising... alright.... so it shall be. at least 10 practices for each item for passion..

mymy so much workkkk...

Lord light my path that i may find constant strength and rest in you..

Currency

Do i really need to hit so much revenue every month? Makes me wonder what for...

Or perhaps my time can be used for a higher purpose. Sure it is good to know and experience what forex is like...

Still the time could be used to improve so many other aspects of my life. Music, magic, etc etc... perhaps i will give forex a miss...

Time is the most valuable.

Passion

Yes i find it burning within me once again. The passion to strive for excellence and the ability to endure what is much more tolerable than normal. Thank God so many things are working out fine.

Wonder why i am scripting exactly what i am going to say as well... is it really worth so much effort ?


i guess so... =)

1 Year Back

Self reflection is always important. 1 year ago i was here preparing for mystique. Now, 1 year has passed. Still i am here, preparing for Passion.

Mystique was birthed forth out of what i do and all that i thought would be magical. Passion, is cos of what i believe in and why i actually put in so much effort into organising everything and anything. to do up sponsorships, venue, etc etc goodness me...

It is at these kind of times that i really really thought of giving up on it. Still, we will finish what you have put into our heart. This passion for Passion. It will definitely be the best above all the rest. The past ... 5? i think yes. 5. Passion is the 6th. It probably will be the last where i take up the whole organisational work and all. It's a crazy load of work.

Funny thing is how Passion actually came about and was reaffirmed. Initially it was called rapture and yes wing u said it sounds like a reptile so yup, i went about praying and found passion. Why? All the sweat and tears sown into this project. All the hours and work poured into it. There's only one word that signifies all this - passion. And Lord i am thankful for your revelation and reaffirmation on it. How nice, isn't it, to suddenly on the way back home, just when you ask for a sign, a lorry passes by and guess what it says on the back? PASSION. In bold. This is nice. Feels good to be on track and in flow with you.

Lord give me strength to train diligently everyday from now to perfect the whole concert. This time, we are serious to hit your given standard.

Syros's Prayer: Let wisdom be given beyond what is imaginable and diligence and perseverance stay and grow from within. Devotion and dedication is what makes us different. Its not just about 10000 hours of practice.

Flow 2010

Finally the video is done...

Light Spinning. A Tribute back to You. For giving me this skill on top of the many others. Hope this video inspires and draws others to know more about You as well.

Stench of Death

The 2nd time going back is just as bad, if not, worse. Perhaps it was the people who were being cut up this time that made it bad.

A cancer suicide patient, a 27 week gestation baby, a decomposing body. Others were more normal.

Still... each one of the above held a different thing that pricked not just into one's nose, but into ones heart as well.

Gross pathology. Perhaps thats how the name came about. Yes it is gross. Not just the slides, the specimens, but the smell too. Equally gross.

The smell is still with me... wonder how to get rid of it.

Ask me whether i would become a pathologist? Answer is definite ... no.

New

'Behold, I will do a new thing.'

Yes i still remember how you said it. But little did i expect you would do it this way.

My past notes are all erased together with the software crash on my phone... it came so suddenly.. all the notes during service and cell... my my... all gone? poof...

Still, i guess this is your way of showing me you want me on a fresh start, that perhaps all those writing down would just not hold a candle to having me seeking you daily and fervently. I remember when i promised to hold on to the covenant with you, to live a life for you, a life worth living, a life to see others being transformed.

Give me the strength to see it come true.

Break me for what breaks you. Let me see with your sight.

Somehow what you showed me overseas shaped me to be even better and more tolerant without me even realising it...

Lord May Your Glory Light My Path.

Totally

Saddened.... 3 takes for a video and its still not perfect... ahhh how can upload this kind of stuff... garbage leh...

hais probably just means to achieve god standard one just has to be extra perfectionist and do things better...

Prob few more takes tm then... hmmm then it will be white and black... wonder how it will look like...

Exercise

Finally a workout after the nice getaway from singapore. Wonder why this time feels so much more different.

3 reasons why anyone exercise
1. Keep Fit
2. Build Muscles
3. Shack Yourself

And yes all 3 applies to me depending on my mood.... and yes different stuff are done for each of the different reasons.
1. Keeping fit = Cardio Training = Jog / Swim
2. Build Muscles = Resistance = Gym / Circuit
3. Shack Yourself = Sian = Crazy Circuit

Guess todays circuit was xiong enough.... rest rest rest...

12 Hours of Sleep

I am back. After a full 12 hrs of sleep... it feels really good to be this refreshed.

Other stuff all felt somewhat like a dream... it passed by so fast... yet all that is left right now are just the products from all the days.

Rehearsal again tm...

Wonder if it will all go alright... do you think so? Having faith =)

Respect

You are one of the few persons that really have my fullest and utmost respect in life. To be able to flow with the love of Christ such that you always swimming in his love. Its amazing. Frankly, you are a true inspiration to me and probably to others.

To be conquerors...

Yes i have been thinking about what you said ever since that tuesday within that short moment just before i departed...

"think about it..." couldnt have thought more about it than anything...

Agreeing would mean a definite change for the better, or at least, an expansion of capacity within me. And yes it would mean a conviction to toss down many of old things of the past, to move into a new place i learn and obey and become more like Him. A path that you have walked yourself.

"i would think about it and let you know again... okay?"

Hesitation on my part at that point of time as it came so suddenly.. why me? I was not confident in my ability to lead ... somehow.... it felt different. A different kind of responsibility when you are leading people in this manner.

I guess i had'nt had that feeling in a long time... to cast all my cards down on the floor and take a step back to look at who i really am. Who am I? Yes loads of bad habits and of course pluses as well but yea... i am imperfect. Very. Can i do it? I don't know.


I am willing to try, step out of the comfortable past i got so used to... lead me on...

Flow 2010

One Word For 2010

20 hours

Ah yes its 20 hours apart from the alloted time... soon mmmm alrights...

Guess the more times you do it the better you get and the less stress you carry. Amazing how everything was packed in just like 1 hour? Yeps cools... tms...

Shall leave cofm and pharmaco aside for 1 day before coming back..

Seeing the prophecy is kinda cool....

Renewed

Perhaps when you do the same thing over and over again after a while it just makes you cui cos you are so used to it and cant progress beyond.

Finally.. breaking free feels really good... ah may this feeling stay yup yup

Heal... soon..

Thought

There's only two reasons why one would succeed.

What you think makes you what you are.
Nothing is impossible.

In effect, you think that you can succeed then you will definitely succeed..


Guess what's more? God is on your side. =)

Prince of Cards

Today probably marks 3 weeks + of training in just this one act alone. Having moved through so many variations over the years and finally reorganising everything to be this. Prince of Cards. Yes i guess this new routine definitely does the name justice. The new video will be up online in a talent search soon. Do vote.

Probably have test runned it on 5 performances so far... looks good. Looks like finally got it into the soul.. yeps it flows.... subconciously. Guess thats when performances reach an exceptional crazy standard.

Heal is coming. =)

Long

Guess its been so long since i last posted. And also somehow nowadays you seem to feel time pass you by so quickly. That the next moment makes you forget immediately what you just did a second ago. Coupled with this kind of lifestyle... to run here and there and just provide joy for other people... time seems to pass by even faster when you are on stage.

Ever wondered where all this is going?

One stranger whom we met just told me about extravagrant giver... that the mantle of compassion will be upon your life that you will be known as an extravagrant giver...

Somehow at that time i just seemed to ponder.. yes some parts its true.. yet some parts i can arrive at it thru my own way as well... wells.... still... melo since u said just be ready to receive it den yes ... will do that then.

And yes i look around and realise ppl around me are growing up and becoming older... people getting married... buying hdb flats... engaged.... makes me wonder... life just isnt the same as before isnt it..

There s a responsibility in growing up... and on top of that... a purpose... not just spending everyday as it is ... you have to do something about your life and know what you are doing and who you are doing it for...

H.E.A.L

Mystique of Heal

Day

Still, its been a really tiring and loong day.. still... i am here and waiting for what you have for me. And i do think of what has happened throughout the whole day... so many things.. yet selectively i would remember.

Wonder when would be the time when one of the two callings will take a back seat. I do not want to let go of either.... still ... guess there may be a time. Yet i really hope that both will be able to continue... for life.

Lord help me.

Use me and mould me as you would, for i am your clay and all that you want me to be.

Flow 2010.

Hypnosis

Impressive. Really impressed. =)

Amox

On amoxicillin... hmm... mmm

SCS. H.E.A.L

Guess what does H.E.A.L stand for?

Interesting how everything turns out.. =)