2 more days

It all went very well! Everything is in place and all the effects are great! Keep in prayer for health and wisdom! =)

See you, thou who are coming, pls stay for a photo shoot after that.

What

Who is to judge what is good and what is bad...

Things may not be turning out exactly well for you but hey... look around you, there are other people who are having a FAR harder time than you. If you think that what you are going through right now is tough... dude, open your eyes and i can show you the world. Look and see. People who are affected, be it physically, mentally or emotionally. Look at them. Some have to struggle to fight for a meal, some have to undergo wayyy disproportionate level of efforts to even manage a normal activity of daily life, maybe... walking? Thought about it?

And we just sit here, walk there, worrying about our own little problem, when we know for certain we do not have to worry about our next meal, we do not have to worry about where we lay our heads next, we do not have to worry about whether what the future would be good to us.

Psalms 73: 21
Thus my heart was grieved, And I was vexed in my mind.
I was so foolish and ignorant, I was like a beast before You.

Take a step back.... Look at what you are facing again. Is it EVEN close, to what certain others have to go through, have to stand up to, have to struggle through? Absolutely not.

After we realise the biggg picture
It continues...
Nevertheless I am continually with You.
You hold me by your right hand.
You will guide me with Your counsel.
And afterward receive me to glory.

All that I have in me I give thanks and praise. For your right hand (the stronger of the 2) protects and shields me, holding me everyday, that should I fall, You will lift me up once again. Should I be faced with challenges, Your holy spirit comes swiftly stepping in, lifting me beyond the troubles, that I can see with your wisdom and decide according to Your will. That I know, this life that you have blessed all of us with, one that is free from sickness, disability, poverty and harm, is one that we will live to glorify Your kingdom, and Your name.


Lord Hold Passion In Your Right Hand.

Grace

You called! =) how nice la...really great to have all these encouragement surround one when the going gets tough. THANK YOU!!

Still, ortho isnt really as tough as i thought it out to be. Somehow still can have time to pack here and there and even play a bit of cards and games. Orthobots is not completely finished the 2nd round, but its ok, i dun feel the urge to finish it that fast. Somehow, it seems as though osce will be a test we ALL breeze through. Come what pe what slides... it will all be settled la.

Okayys back to Grace. More than just your name! After gg through so much of medicine, somehow you know that it is truly by grace that we live, that we can live to breathe the next day, that we can crawl out of bed alive and kicking after each long slumberous night. It is only by grace that we can walk normally, that we can eat normally, and from a more ortho perspective, that we can have no neuro deficit, that respective myotome and dermatome can function as they should. (ie i want to lift my hand, my hand lifts!)

Nice isnt it? Yet it also makes one ponder what about the others who suffer. Maybe one day... i will be like him? Getting a nerve palsy. What would happen then? What would i do? How do i cope? A functional deficit? How?

Ortho was an eye opener in some aspects. You see people ### day in and day out. People come in with ray amputations... and to be ray amputated... nerve palsies.... etc etc. Makes you wonder how they cope with the functional deficit ...

Anw premorbidly, the only logical thing that we can do is give thanks. Give thanks for this grace upon our lives up till now and ongoing, that your holy hand will hold us and protect us.

Morbid thought for a moment. But still thanksgiving overrides!

Touch of God

That when i stand here and look objectively at the whole picture. Yes i need a touch from heaven. There's absolutely no way that it will be full house. I don't know why i cannot have more faith to trust in You completely.. but isnt it true that faith alone without actions is futile words?

Even when actions have been taken, the concept of seedtime and harvest dwells in my mind and look. I am looking and i dont think that the harvest will come so fast. Why do you doubt? Do you not have faith? Heb 11:1 flashes across really quickly.

Why? Thurs there's a talk. Do you think a touch from heaven will come down straight this week? I am waiting. Open. Having second thoughts. Running backup measures.

Still. James 1. Perseverance. Come what may... man we will handle it tgt la.. come come.

Why.

The question is always why?

Why do you do what you do?
Why now?
Why everything turns out like that?
Why do i have to keep doing it?

My my... this sounds like pre concert MDD. Goodness... its only 2 weeks left. VIP seats are almost all taken up.. like maybe (2 left?) come monday and they will all be gone..

RI sales are like so so... hope all goes well there.. how much can i do to check on them?

Rehearsals are draining my life bit by bit... together with LOOONG hospital days. Think its time to just take a break and stay at home to study osce... still the whole programme for the night looks absolutely fantastic... talk about well rehearsed... mentalism has never been so well rehearsed before... seemed pretty scary. If you haven heard about it... sy is only performing for around 45 mins (open + close + some crazy stuff). Yes it is crazily jam packed this time... letting everything happen so fast, effects after effects.. how not to be stunned... think i will have a sore throat after the concert as usual... 110% ppl may say? Think i am giving it 150%... heh thats the lower limit.

Oh yes how i love to ramble... thank god osce is not super early morning... that wld be nuts. Right think can finish osce.. lunch... rest... den start the prep there.

2 MORE WEEKS OH MY! None other concerts have felt like this before... wonder why... maybe cos its the last one that we are org, or may its due to the fact that i am giving it sooo much effort. I wonder what happens on the day...

FYI rehearsals videos may be posted on 27may... welll dpding on free time... actually think they wont, will be more bz reviewing.

Right.thats it. Back to why... haha. Ans is in the concert title ... Passion.

Yes You

There's no running away or backing out at this point. Only one thing is for sure. The future is awesome and holds so much within. And its totally up to us to unravel every part of it.

Trust and find the light in the darkness. Being pulled by hope than drawn by fear...

If You Are Praying

Passion Concert
For the ticketing to go well, in RI especially.
For energy and wisdom in committee members who are juggling academics and this project.
For passion and dedication in RI students as they go about promoting this show.
For the performers in the show to have showmanship and confidence.
For sound and lighting to be ever so on cue.
For the funds raised to exceed beyond what we can imagine.
For World Vision to be known by more people and aided by more people.

For Me.
That i can juggle all the happenings around me, eopt vs concert.
That i can fully internalize every segment within the concert.
That the concert will reflect the exact passion that is within since 8 years ago.
That i can have enough energy and strength to deliver 110% on the day itself.
That my friends who come can be blessed in a special way.
That this last one will be the best it can be.

That this vision, this project, will come to pass like how You planned it out to be.
Ordain my steps.