Days to Destiny

Every single moment i spend right now brings me closer to tomorrow... that i already know what to expect.. isnt twice the experience sufficient to bring you enough confidence and control... to master... to exude... to behold... to allure...

It is... that perhaps right now what affects me is no longer the skills.. no longer the confidence.. but perhaps the mood that others instill within me... i need to get to where i am.. i need to get to where i need to go... i need to be there.... that only then can the full flow come by....

Come for i am ready... less than 20 hrs...

The passion of fire.. water... elements. Energy... pure energy and charisma combined together...

Trance. Allure.

Thanksgiving

Thank you for all that you have showered upon me, that you love is unfailing, your touch is relentless, your gifts are everlasting, you comfort is continuous... that my thanks and glory that i bring for you will be forever more...

A great work for SCS. Let more be done through my hands for your name.

Purpose

What you said would always be in my mind.

Somehow it jolted certain nerves, pushing myself to a different level, reaching for things that were once beyond reach, or was thought of to be beyond the reaches of yourself... I wonder... a bit of doubt, a bit of conviction, sort of sitting on the fence.. trying to balance it well...

Yet i know with so many things that come together to make me who i am right now... and [erhaps more to add to in future.... would only transform me even further.. perhaps even beyond my control... that words could speak so much more into peoples lives ... that eyes could read way beyond what sight could normally tell... that contact could evoke things even more than the basic level of touch...

I don't know who i will be.. but i know who i will be for....

Few more years... flow with the flow...

Allure - Surpassing The Supernatural

Amazing prep.... amazing set up... alluring allure.... 1 week ++...

Guess its still exciting even though its the third one... =)

Yet... I Wonder

Sometimes it just makes you wonder doesnt it? That why does time fly past you ever so quickly? Is it cos of age catching up with you? That you become more oblivious to the fact that things are passing you by, perhaps at an accelerated speed? That you forget that every moment that was spent was actually part of your life a few moments ago? That it went past as though it never even happened in your life? I forget...

I totally forget....

Yet everyday convicts me with the same purpose of who i am living for...
Yet everyday reaffirms my every thought in why i am doing what i am doing...
Yet everyday confirms where i am heading is nearer to the final goal in life through my every action...

Sometimes i just wonder when the years catch up with me... i guess i will be old and haggard... maybe lively.. but thats beside the point.. would i be able to look back and see all i have done, and say ' yes it was good'? Would all that be reaffirmed by you saying that to me when i meet you?

1 month from now ... 21.
So much that was done before i finally reach this first mark in life...

Staff Spinning. Juggling. Mentalism. Magic. Poi Spin. Balloon Sculpting. Marketing. Business. Concerts.

How much would they show me what life really is?
Life is boundless... Achievements are endless... Final Destination is final...

Rebbie still rocks... haha but yes u always cheer me up =)
I still seek your next level...

Mesmerised

Feels good to be young again =)

Flow... still flowing... waiting for you....

And yes... sometimes you think you simply know it all... and guess what...

the next moment you are proven sooooo wrong... BUT.. i like that.. haha

Guess its good to always be reminded that nobody alone is sufficient ... so much beyond normal thinkable means... my my... haha flow flow!!! contact!! omg.. this is the thing...

1 year from now i guess... haha maybe shorter... see how....

Mm do you think you have perfected poi? Somewhat maybe... somewhat...

Contact. Flow... Period.

EOPTee

Nuts... so much to rmb.... nuts nuts.. haha char ur fave la... all the nuts... hahaha

BUT i am so happy to have done some impulse buying... nice nice... shall see it come in a few days time.. woo hooo!!! =DD

1 more day to freedom... haha see how tm....

Your Touch

Realised its been quite some time since i last came here to write...

Well.. cos its been busy!! With all the work & fun.. intermixed together... giving a life that is ever so fulfilling...

Nice..

Watched God's Chisel... Reminded me of where i once was when you picked me up... raised me up... changed me... chiseled me to who i am today.. that you will always continue to chisel away at me... that i would willingly and wholehearted accept every single strike....

I would rather see more of you and less of me....

Still remember how it hurts you more than it could ever hurt me... how much more could i not bear? I can =)

I liked that video... let me always come back when i need to re-know you once more... even deeper... somehow everytime i watch that clip it always speaks new areas into me...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXut0HxncvY

Another session of sharing today.. how nice... & yes allure is really getting awesomely alluring.. anticpating allure... totally

Realised how much i love fire... signifies passion, power, flow. How nice would it be to allow it to enrapture oneself totally... i look forward to the day that i manipulate the force all around... that it will just be a smooth pattern of flow.. turning twisting dancing in every dimension...

I give all of my days... for all of your ways.

Friday....

Guess its one week from now that i will see you again... I still remember the first time we met... so much wisdom within... so much admiration.... so much respect....

Still everytime we meet it just means another short session of treatment... another short but tolerable session of pain and renewal...

How well technology works nowadays.... i look forward to seeing you again...

Deeply Entranced

Still remember every single movement you made within the short amount of time... the voice... the melody.... simply entrancing....

When would we meet again? I wonder...

Allure - Surpassing The Supernatural

How awesome... Catch your tickets @ any toa payoh CCs... distribution would be pretty soon when the posters are up... =)

R.O.S

Mm... time of maturity... time of thought... time of surpassing the self... =)

Cheer Up!

Are you irritated cos of me? =(

Guess not... still
Cheer UP!! =)

20th Anniversary

Today was totally awesome.

Best... so much to write... yet so little time. Let's summarise..

Morning = Glory Defined + Purpose Defined + Visions + Not to put God in boxes....

Late Morning = Sleep + Renaissance + Balloons & Fun & Fireworks

Evening = Night of Enchantment (awesome ok!)


Ok we shall continue from evening... yes yes.. now i realise what i look for... nice voice is one... makes a person stand out.... very much so. Its really a joy to listen to you all singing in such melodious manner that yes whenever i closed my eyes back then i feel myself elecated to a different state. Thank you. I appreciate the relaxation.

HANYANG! You did a good job! =) Still comp was tough, so dun take it upon urself. But yes its really good stuff... i am so glad i went =) Thanks rebbie =D

Oh yes... talk about power and humility... doesnt really come together actually... power = power, humility = humility. Power is seen on stage and humility is seen off stage... somehow, certain people fall into a place where one is high and the other one is low... must really strike a balance.

But well, u are good... really good. I was truly impresssed =) good job. butter factory suits you. haha... may you be a master in that area.

Since now i am in the mood, the box topic... everyone tells you to put things in perspectives... to categorise... a wonderful way to save memory space and to organise things fast... and yes i did that for almost everything... how smart.. no wonder i din breakthrough from the level i reached last time... YES GOD IS NOT IN A BOX HELLO!! Just a gentle~ reminder... HE IS NOT!

Dont you remember he is omnipresent, and you cant fit him into a little box in your mind... rmb that. pls. else you will just be noobified and you wont even realise the problem... how dumb would that be... denial?

So glad for what you showed me today. Somehow the words you say dont have to be long and flowery, simple and direct was impactful enough. Touching heaven, changing souls. I look forward to your seven gifts. I have dismantled the little box btw... how nice. you are in all my boxes now. =DDD

& I realised an additional thing that makes me happy..... =)))

True Joy baby...True joy
See it manifest totally in theatre in ~ Allure ~ we shall see ...

Post Joy

Don't really want to miss this feeling. That of being able to submit totally to you once again that once again I realise and double convict myself of who I am living for. Somehow your analogy of the young brother running around exploring a world by his own mark of wisdom corresponds so much with what I have went through ever since that last concert...

So many times have I tried to make certain things happen and that by my own will to will the bike faster did I speed on to come so near to crashing, yet you always pull me away before I crash badly. Always.

Let us not forget to stay on the correct path that we don't deviate from what the truth says and slip back into what the young and old brother hold to.

Double conviction of joy in you. Its been some time since I felt this way. To be able to release every single worry onto the ground before I step unto your courts. Still remember what you led me to see. Casting every single burden before I come to you. Feels awesome doesn't it? Knowing that you will take care of every single circumstance and that you always have a perfect plan. I remember that joy swelling up within so much that even my open hands couldn't contain the happiness within. I was smiling. Somehow it did not resemble a smile on a normal day. I know you are there. :)

Still you left without saying a word. That somehow a voice in me calls me to accord you the same kind of closeness despite what you constantly say to me. Dashing a person down would that be encouragement? The voice comes and say how many times can you not forgive that I can still forgive you despite what you have done all these while? I strain a smile, hit a topic, hoping it will go forth. Yes it did, but disappeared within that of a few moments as you utter what you would say again. How long more would we confine ourselves to the frames and rules that bind people so tightly? It only gets tighter on the already constrained soul. Just that you do not see it.

Lord I yield my control. Convicted.

Festival of Praise

Festival of Praise. Once in a year.. 3 nights of wisdom, power, hope, love, knowledge. Transcending beyond what normal dimensions in the human world can comprehend. Do you think that one would be able to comprehend what lies beyond this dimension when he has walls built all around above, below, across in all directions? Almost analogous to forming a well and hiding within.. and guess what, putting an additional lid on and hoping to even see the face of the sun or even a speck of sunlight.

Nope, thats not how it works. He calls for openess and a heart of humility... Broken spiritedness that he can thus work through... He needs your walls to be fully broken just like an alabaster flask of wondrous scent that could not even give off the slightest aroma until it is broken, unleashing its perfume unto others. He needs your brokeness before everything else could even take place... before his glory fall, his kingdom come....

So ...
Break me ... Completely... That i may rise up again with renewed vigor in this new year for you.