Touch

Touch people, touch lives, touch hearts... touch of christ.

To Live

To live a life to benefit others. To live a life to create change in society.

When medicine and magic comes together = ....

Passion

All great things birth from one word - passion. What makes it different now is that you already have all you need to take the big step out. To have been carried so far up is not to be dropped down, but only to be lifted higher.

What charity magic concerts used to do, can now go beyond and do so much more, in ways that we do not even fathom, but we have faith.

Empathy

Was i glad that i did not turn sarcastic or flare up at that remark....

If i had been through what you have been through, i guess i probably would be even more down than what you are now...

Sometimes stories turn into real life situations..

Praying for you. And its ok if you want to be mean to me, strict, etc, its perfectly alright. I understand what you are going through and probably thats why you demand such high standards... I would too if i were you.

Feeling

Understood. I know what you mean.

Loving People

To have an overwhelming acceptance for everybody, seeing each person as a 10 upon 10.
To listen more to others as paying attention shows a person worth.
To have empathy and look beneath what other people are going through and listen to their heart.
To be real and transparent. Sometimes, oneself's need is a gift to somebody else.
To have encompassing forgiveness, to release the right to get back at others.
To give encouragement and loving confrontation.

New Phone

=)!

Your Qn

Why? Good qn, high standards, and a reluctance to give up other priorities.

Why? Cos when you are young, its the time to make or break your destiny.

Why? Cos there's always someone out there who will eventually be the one.

Or maybe, its just that i haven chosen to let go fully...

I don't even understand fully...

=)

A good word makes the heart glad. A good movie makes the mind happy =)

Letting Go

Holding on to so many things is just so tiring sometimes...

Questions like "what if...?" , "then how?", "was what i did right?", "so what will you think?"

So many things... so tired. It just doesnt feel right to carry so much on ones shoulders...

Lifting all in your hands... and just guide my path however the outcome. I will flow with you...

Tired from compilation, from running around, from peoples expectations, from commitments, from a lot... or just actually... venting some tiredness frustration... i dun noe... i can just crash and sleep...

Silent Commitment

To know exactly where we are headed in this walk of medicine. To know exactly who we want to model ourselves after. To know exactly how we want to change society, heal hearts, and touch lives.

To have clean hands, and a pure heart, to touch the needy, ignite hope for the lost, heal the sick, revive the unconcious, comfort to the worried... Your prayer was powerful.

Let every patient we come across have a constant prayer too.

What it Means

This is the time that one actually realises what it means to be a doctor.

To have clean hands and a pure heart, to deliver that healing touch to those in need. 2 more weeks till end of e med, 2 more years till end of student life. Time flies, knowledge accumulates.

Anw ambulance run was a spectrum. Totally.

Emergency

Really liked it. Prob cos of the fact that what you learn is of a broad scope that will enable you to know how to administer therapy to others when they really need it.. Then again, back side is that mistakes come with direct repercussions... Man you really got to be good in this... plug, catheter, cpr... etc time to be highly proficient in all these things.... Its a thin line between therapeutic and toxic..

Anw. Ambulance run was good. One word that kept resurfacing when offering my help... Responsibility. Each of them had this same response.

"Its my responsibility."

Wow. Awesome la. That sort of spirit is worth developing and having. =)

Side note. Tm is FIC. Blast 2 shows in 1 days... 10 decks of cards... a bit wasteful but okay la...

Reorder

Priorities in Life. After so much happened... time to re order priorities... for at least... the later half of 2010.

Be a good doctor (academically, clinically, morally)
Be a good son
Be a good magician (supporting the community)
Be a good cgl
Be a good investor

Live a life for Christ. 5 things for now. 1 is unmentioned. We see how.

Spectrum

What a thing to witness. Spectrum.

Last week was an absolutely fantastical experience for ENT. Tutors were amazingly nice and even the not nice ones din really give us trouble. Stark contrast with this week... isnt it? Pretty bad... kills my mood to learn...

Now i get what you mean when the tutor makes you feel stupid... These tutors shld just quite la k... lousy is a overestimate for them.

Just imagine comments like ' Eh you need to get smarter... oh you are smarter by the minute..." den after that he goes into his own realm of talk garb... 'so what is the one thing you need to think of? No... no ... no .. no' series of no s then later he fills in his own simple answer seemingly super smart... =_=

Oh wells... if i ever become a tutor this will definitely not be what i will become.. you never know when you will demoralise someone who is almost on the verge of giving up...

Be a source of encouragement to all around you. That they see joy, peace and love from you.

Uplifted

All that i can hold in my hands, i submit into yours. Running never fails to make me run to you. Re orientate myself within the circumstances that i have been placed in ...admidst all the different wonderings and issues.

Reflection.

So much that has been prayed for, and so much that i have received. Medicine is a large part of my life, so is magic. Wont let either passion fade....

Youth Olympics... One Moment of Glory...

We wonder where all these lead to... it seems as though the vision from 2008 is starting to take shape. Coming in forms that i can never fathom. Amazing.

July and August will be a hectic period... Balance is key...

Bless my health
Bless my emotions
Bless my walk.

Strength. Wisdom. Clarity. Passion.

Fast

Somehow... somehow. All happened so fast.

And yes, its good to know that with practice all can happen at such a speed that is beyond what one can imagine. Possible for real magic to take place?

Yes. Based on super hyper sensitive judgement to create the effect.

Lets try and get these 2 skills done before we finish august... =)

Amazing.

Fasthow...

Somehow... some

=)

Live a life with God inside and you will not regret one moment of it.

Your smile i can never forget... at least... for now.

Come Back

Coming back to where we left off last time... after one is built up even further.

Face it off dude.

What cant kill you only makes you stronger!

Load

That i realise that this is what i turn towards in the times of sadness... to just get my mind off things... and perhaps advocate a good time of silence for gaps to close and heat to dissipate...

Beautiful creations... Loads of time... Lifetime of work..

Faded

Yes you look back at the past few years of your life and time seems to have faded away from the equation of life. It felt like just yesterday that I was still in bali... still studying for exam.... still waiting for my first anat prac... still preparing for the first concert...

My my, time flies. and yes...
1.7 years since the first concert, its become perfected now....
2.5 years of following Christ...
3 years since inception into medical school...
5 years ago i was still in JC... like a kid...

wow... time flies.

Ask me whether i regretted my 1.7 , 2.5, 3, 5 years... I don't. Though its not perfect... but i don't regret it. Everything has sort of fell sorta in place to make the me today. So many things that we strive for at that time now on hindsight, was just a passing thing.

Think O levels, A levels, CCA points, community service hours, training, shows, relationships, homework... problems? They sure seemed to be obstacles at that point of time... yet now that we look back. They are ever sooo small... We made it!

Ps 90: 12
So teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.

Time flies. Lord teach us to look forward, and not get caught up in the past, for the destiny is ahead, not behind. =)

Wait

Today was the first time to have waited for 1 person for this long. 1 hr. Fully. Just for the person, even after numerous phone calls. Remarkable. Still... at that point of the 30 min mark, felt pissed and about to leave, but... felt that perhaps she had something on that was really urgent, and couldnt pick up the call/ come down... well... time was channelled to reading. Somehow.

Phil 4 :8... rings a bell doesnt it?

Somehow my esword opened up to phil by itself. How nice.

Anyway, one thing that was clear as a good reminder as well, was that of

Phil 3: 13
Forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead.
I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

Yes isn't it impt, and true, to let go of the past... be it the past 1 week, 1 month, 1 year, or even the past few years. To let go of things that may have hurt. Such that one would have more room to move on, to have the heart to accomodate what is in store in the future. The future is a glowing one... day after day we draw nearer to being who we are supposed to be, who we really are in destiny. I look to that.

Time passes by....

Phil 4:8
Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy, meditate on these things.
The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.

What a timely reminder. Somehow all the negative thoughts of waiting were just swept out of the mind. To know and understand, this is the living word and what life is really about. To think these things, to do these things.

When body, mind and soul align and flow.... we wait to see to be moulded to be and to do like you.

2 more days

It all went very well! Everything is in place and all the effects are great! Keep in prayer for health and wisdom! =)

See you, thou who are coming, pls stay for a photo shoot after that.

What

Who is to judge what is good and what is bad...

Things may not be turning out exactly well for you but hey... look around you, there are other people who are having a FAR harder time than you. If you think that what you are going through right now is tough... dude, open your eyes and i can show you the world. Look and see. People who are affected, be it physically, mentally or emotionally. Look at them. Some have to struggle to fight for a meal, some have to undergo wayyy disproportionate level of efforts to even manage a normal activity of daily life, maybe... walking? Thought about it?

And we just sit here, walk there, worrying about our own little problem, when we know for certain we do not have to worry about our next meal, we do not have to worry about where we lay our heads next, we do not have to worry about whether what the future would be good to us.

Psalms 73: 21
Thus my heart was grieved, And I was vexed in my mind.
I was so foolish and ignorant, I was like a beast before You.

Take a step back.... Look at what you are facing again. Is it EVEN close, to what certain others have to go through, have to stand up to, have to struggle through? Absolutely not.

After we realise the biggg picture
It continues...
Nevertheless I am continually with You.
You hold me by your right hand.
You will guide me with Your counsel.
And afterward receive me to glory.

All that I have in me I give thanks and praise. For your right hand (the stronger of the 2) protects and shields me, holding me everyday, that should I fall, You will lift me up once again. Should I be faced with challenges, Your holy spirit comes swiftly stepping in, lifting me beyond the troubles, that I can see with your wisdom and decide according to Your will. That I know, this life that you have blessed all of us with, one that is free from sickness, disability, poverty and harm, is one that we will live to glorify Your kingdom, and Your name.


Lord Hold Passion In Your Right Hand.

Grace

You called! =) how nice la...really great to have all these encouragement surround one when the going gets tough. THANK YOU!!

Still, ortho isnt really as tough as i thought it out to be. Somehow still can have time to pack here and there and even play a bit of cards and games. Orthobots is not completely finished the 2nd round, but its ok, i dun feel the urge to finish it that fast. Somehow, it seems as though osce will be a test we ALL breeze through. Come what pe what slides... it will all be settled la.

Okayys back to Grace. More than just your name! After gg through so much of medicine, somehow you know that it is truly by grace that we live, that we can live to breathe the next day, that we can crawl out of bed alive and kicking after each long slumberous night. It is only by grace that we can walk normally, that we can eat normally, and from a more ortho perspective, that we can have no neuro deficit, that respective myotome and dermatome can function as they should. (ie i want to lift my hand, my hand lifts!)

Nice isnt it? Yet it also makes one ponder what about the others who suffer. Maybe one day... i will be like him? Getting a nerve palsy. What would happen then? What would i do? How do i cope? A functional deficit? How?

Ortho was an eye opener in some aspects. You see people ### day in and day out. People come in with ray amputations... and to be ray amputated... nerve palsies.... etc etc. Makes you wonder how they cope with the functional deficit ...

Anw premorbidly, the only logical thing that we can do is give thanks. Give thanks for this grace upon our lives up till now and ongoing, that your holy hand will hold us and protect us.

Morbid thought for a moment. But still thanksgiving overrides!

Touch of God

That when i stand here and look objectively at the whole picture. Yes i need a touch from heaven. There's absolutely no way that it will be full house. I don't know why i cannot have more faith to trust in You completely.. but isnt it true that faith alone without actions is futile words?

Even when actions have been taken, the concept of seedtime and harvest dwells in my mind and look. I am looking and i dont think that the harvest will come so fast. Why do you doubt? Do you not have faith? Heb 11:1 flashes across really quickly.

Why? Thurs there's a talk. Do you think a touch from heaven will come down straight this week? I am waiting. Open. Having second thoughts. Running backup measures.

Still. James 1. Perseverance. Come what may... man we will handle it tgt la.. come come.

Why.

The question is always why?

Why do you do what you do?
Why now?
Why everything turns out like that?
Why do i have to keep doing it?

My my... this sounds like pre concert MDD. Goodness... its only 2 weeks left. VIP seats are almost all taken up.. like maybe (2 left?) come monday and they will all be gone..

RI sales are like so so... hope all goes well there.. how much can i do to check on them?

Rehearsals are draining my life bit by bit... together with LOOONG hospital days. Think its time to just take a break and stay at home to study osce... still the whole programme for the night looks absolutely fantastic... talk about well rehearsed... mentalism has never been so well rehearsed before... seemed pretty scary. If you haven heard about it... sy is only performing for around 45 mins (open + close + some crazy stuff). Yes it is crazily jam packed this time... letting everything happen so fast, effects after effects.. how not to be stunned... think i will have a sore throat after the concert as usual... 110% ppl may say? Think i am giving it 150%... heh thats the lower limit.

Oh yes how i love to ramble... thank god osce is not super early morning... that wld be nuts. Right think can finish osce.. lunch... rest... den start the prep there.

2 MORE WEEKS OH MY! None other concerts have felt like this before... wonder why... maybe cos its the last one that we are org, or may its due to the fact that i am giving it sooo much effort. I wonder what happens on the day...

FYI rehearsals videos may be posted on 27may... welll dpding on free time... actually think they wont, will be more bz reviewing.

Right.thats it. Back to why... haha. Ans is in the concert title ... Passion.

Yes You

There's no running away or backing out at this point. Only one thing is for sure. The future is awesome and holds so much within. And its totally up to us to unravel every part of it.

Trust and find the light in the darkness. Being pulled by hope than drawn by fear...

If You Are Praying

Passion Concert
For the ticketing to go well, in RI especially.
For energy and wisdom in committee members who are juggling academics and this project.
For passion and dedication in RI students as they go about promoting this show.
For the performers in the show to have showmanship and confidence.
For sound and lighting to be ever so on cue.
For the funds raised to exceed beyond what we can imagine.
For World Vision to be known by more people and aided by more people.

For Me.
That i can juggle all the happenings around me, eopt vs concert.
That i can fully internalize every segment within the concert.
That the concert will reflect the exact passion that is within since 8 years ago.
That i can have enough energy and strength to deliver 110% on the day itself.
That my friends who come can be blessed in a special way.
That this last one will be the best it can be.

That this vision, this project, will come to pass like how You planned it out to be.
Ordain my steps.