Passion

Yet all i feel right now is this...

Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what was promised.

When awesomeness floods in... =D

Define Passion

Passion is

Seen in the Eye
Formed in the Heart
Birthed from the Soul


The amount of work that you all put in to achieve this is absolutely remarkable. Perhaps if i match up to that... it will be a blast. And yes it will be a blast. =)

Why...

The amount of work for this passion is pretty crazy... why do i do what i do....

needs a break... still must rush it out for thursday.... =S

World Water Day

Mm... yes it made me realise that even if one has hit 10000 hours.. it doesnt change... you still need practice for what you want to do, esp if its new stuff... Yup it was good still, but din clear the distinction mark.

Rmb how professional it became after u put in a couple more hours scripting and practising... alright.... so it shall be. at least 10 practices for each item for passion..

mymy so much workkkk...

Lord light my path that i may find constant strength and rest in you..

Currency

Do i really need to hit so much revenue every month? Makes me wonder what for...

Or perhaps my time can be used for a higher purpose. Sure it is good to know and experience what forex is like...

Still the time could be used to improve so many other aspects of my life. Music, magic, etc etc... perhaps i will give forex a miss...

Time is the most valuable.

Passion

Yes i find it burning within me once again. The passion to strive for excellence and the ability to endure what is much more tolerable than normal. Thank God so many things are working out fine.

Wonder why i am scripting exactly what i am going to say as well... is it really worth so much effort ?


i guess so... =)

1 Year Back

Self reflection is always important. 1 year ago i was here preparing for mystique. Now, 1 year has passed. Still i am here, preparing for Passion.

Mystique was birthed forth out of what i do and all that i thought would be magical. Passion, is cos of what i believe in and why i actually put in so much effort into organising everything and anything. to do up sponsorships, venue, etc etc goodness me...

It is at these kind of times that i really really thought of giving up on it. Still, we will finish what you have put into our heart. This passion for Passion. It will definitely be the best above all the rest. The past ... 5? i think yes. 5. Passion is the 6th. It probably will be the last where i take up the whole organisational work and all. It's a crazy load of work.

Funny thing is how Passion actually came about and was reaffirmed. Initially it was called rapture and yes wing u said it sounds like a reptile so yup, i went about praying and found passion. Why? All the sweat and tears sown into this project. All the hours and work poured into it. There's only one word that signifies all this - passion. And Lord i am thankful for your revelation and reaffirmation on it. How nice, isn't it, to suddenly on the way back home, just when you ask for a sign, a lorry passes by and guess what it says on the back? PASSION. In bold. This is nice. Feels good to be on track and in flow with you.

Lord give me strength to train diligently everyday from now to perfect the whole concert. This time, we are serious to hit your given standard.

Syros's Prayer: Let wisdom be given beyond what is imaginable and diligence and perseverance stay and grow from within. Devotion and dedication is what makes us different. Its not just about 10000 hours of practice.

Flow 2010

Finally the video is done...

Light Spinning. A Tribute back to You. For giving me this skill on top of the many others. Hope this video inspires and draws others to know more about You as well.

Stench of Death

The 2nd time going back is just as bad, if not, worse. Perhaps it was the people who were being cut up this time that made it bad.

A cancer suicide patient, a 27 week gestation baby, a decomposing body. Others were more normal.

Still... each one of the above held a different thing that pricked not just into one's nose, but into ones heart as well.

Gross pathology. Perhaps thats how the name came about. Yes it is gross. Not just the slides, the specimens, but the smell too. Equally gross.

The smell is still with me... wonder how to get rid of it.

Ask me whether i would become a pathologist? Answer is definite ... no.

New

'Behold, I will do a new thing.'

Yes i still remember how you said it. But little did i expect you would do it this way.

My past notes are all erased together with the software crash on my phone... it came so suddenly.. all the notes during service and cell... my my... all gone? poof...

Still, i guess this is your way of showing me you want me on a fresh start, that perhaps all those writing down would just not hold a candle to having me seeking you daily and fervently. I remember when i promised to hold on to the covenant with you, to live a life for you, a life worth living, a life to see others being transformed.

Give me the strength to see it come true.

Break me for what breaks you. Let me see with your sight.

Somehow what you showed me overseas shaped me to be even better and more tolerant without me even realising it...

Lord May Your Glory Light My Path.

Totally

Saddened.... 3 takes for a video and its still not perfect... ahhh how can upload this kind of stuff... garbage leh...

hais probably just means to achieve god standard one just has to be extra perfectionist and do things better...

Prob few more takes tm then... hmmm then it will be white and black... wonder how it will look like...

Exercise

Finally a workout after the nice getaway from singapore. Wonder why this time feels so much more different.

3 reasons why anyone exercise
1. Keep Fit
2. Build Muscles
3. Shack Yourself

And yes all 3 applies to me depending on my mood.... and yes different stuff are done for each of the different reasons.
1. Keeping fit = Cardio Training = Jog / Swim
2. Build Muscles = Resistance = Gym / Circuit
3. Shack Yourself = Sian = Crazy Circuit

Guess todays circuit was xiong enough.... rest rest rest...

12 Hours of Sleep

I am back. After a full 12 hrs of sleep... it feels really good to be this refreshed.

Other stuff all felt somewhat like a dream... it passed by so fast... yet all that is left right now are just the products from all the days.

Rehearsal again tm...

Wonder if it will all go alright... do you think so? Having faith =)

Respect

You are one of the few persons that really have my fullest and utmost respect in life. To be able to flow with the love of Christ such that you always swimming in his love. Its amazing. Frankly, you are a true inspiration to me and probably to others.

To be conquerors...

Yes i have been thinking about what you said ever since that tuesday within that short moment just before i departed...

"think about it..." couldnt have thought more about it than anything...

Agreeing would mean a definite change for the better, or at least, an expansion of capacity within me. And yes it would mean a conviction to toss down many of old things of the past, to move into a new place i learn and obey and become more like Him. A path that you have walked yourself.

"i would think about it and let you know again... okay?"

Hesitation on my part at that point of time as it came so suddenly.. why me? I was not confident in my ability to lead ... somehow.... it felt different. A different kind of responsibility when you are leading people in this manner.

I guess i had'nt had that feeling in a long time... to cast all my cards down on the floor and take a step back to look at who i really am. Who am I? Yes loads of bad habits and of course pluses as well but yea... i am imperfect. Very. Can i do it? I don't know.


I am willing to try, step out of the comfortable past i got so used to... lead me on...

Flow 2010

One Word For 2010

20 hours

Ah yes its 20 hours apart from the alloted time... soon mmmm alrights...

Guess the more times you do it the better you get and the less stress you carry. Amazing how everything was packed in just like 1 hour? Yeps cools... tms...

Shall leave cofm and pharmaco aside for 1 day before coming back..

Seeing the prophecy is kinda cool....

Renewed

Perhaps when you do the same thing over and over again after a while it just makes you cui cos you are so used to it and cant progress beyond.

Finally.. breaking free feels really good... ah may this feeling stay yup yup

Heal... soon..

Thought

There's only two reasons why one would succeed.

What you think makes you what you are.
Nothing is impossible.

In effect, you think that you can succeed then you will definitely succeed..


Guess what's more? God is on your side. =)

Prince of Cards

Today probably marks 3 weeks + of training in just this one act alone. Having moved through so many variations over the years and finally reorganising everything to be this. Prince of Cards. Yes i guess this new routine definitely does the name justice. The new video will be up online in a talent search soon. Do vote.

Probably have test runned it on 5 performances so far... looks good. Looks like finally got it into the soul.. yeps it flows.... subconciously. Guess thats when performances reach an exceptional crazy standard.

Heal is coming. =)

Long

Guess its been so long since i last posted. And also somehow nowadays you seem to feel time pass you by so quickly. That the next moment makes you forget immediately what you just did a second ago. Coupled with this kind of lifestyle... to run here and there and just provide joy for other people... time seems to pass by even faster when you are on stage.

Ever wondered where all this is going?

One stranger whom we met just told me about extravagrant giver... that the mantle of compassion will be upon your life that you will be known as an extravagrant giver...

Somehow at that time i just seemed to ponder.. yes some parts its true.. yet some parts i can arrive at it thru my own way as well... wells.... still... melo since u said just be ready to receive it den yes ... will do that then.

And yes i look around and realise ppl around me are growing up and becoming older... people getting married... buying hdb flats... engaged.... makes me wonder... life just isnt the same as before isnt it..

There s a responsibility in growing up... and on top of that... a purpose... not just spending everyday as it is ... you have to do something about your life and know what you are doing and who you are doing it for...

H.E.A.L

Mystique of Heal

Day

Still, its been a really tiring and loong day.. still... i am here and waiting for what you have for me. And i do think of what has happened throughout the whole day... so many things.. yet selectively i would remember.

Wonder when would be the time when one of the two callings will take a back seat. I do not want to let go of either.... still ... guess there may be a time. Yet i really hope that both will be able to continue... for life.

Lord help me.

Use me and mould me as you would, for i am your clay and all that you want me to be.

Flow 2010.

Hypnosis

Impressive. Really impressed. =)

Amox

On amoxicillin... hmm... mmm

SCS. H.E.A.L

Guess what does H.E.A.L stand for?

Interesting how everything turns out.. =)

Testimony

Every day is a testimony. Every day that i am able to train and hurl cards out at that kind of speed and grandeur is a testimony to how you have made me. It is all too clear right now where you want me to go to. Perhaps when you made me, thats how you made me to be a cut above the other magicians or illusionists, that i would have this touch from you to change the experience anyone could have with cards. Training is tough... sweat, ache, pain.... still thou who has trained for 10 000 hours shall see the wonders.... more so when you train with the spirit of god...

Awesomeness. I praise you and i thank you for all you have done in me. That all i am is for you... send me... and i will go.

Praying everyday for the same cause.... 6 months lets sustain!

Goal Setting

New Year - New Goals. New Dreams. New Visions. New Limits.

Set them well!! =))

God Provides

Even as i write this. I know i am reaffirming what i know and what i do that lives with this.

Still, looking back at so many years of hard work, sweat, tears.. ever cried when you failed? haha... Champions are still ppl who fail but never give up. Yes yes.... we all know that...

Yup back tot the point. Dec was truly a demonstration of this. Even as you give up your time helping, doing all the charity work and all... just going to every single call... guess what? God's provision always is sufficient, in fact overabundant... =)) Nice...

Really feels good living this way. Just go just go... send me send me...

End of 2009

Soon =)
Yes end with a big bang! nice nice =)

Went nuh today. Nice to be there to help out. Guess all these bring me so much more joy i ever thought it would. Take me to a new level then =)

Labrador Hostel after that... looong day. But fun. Interesting what a small deck of cards can always do for others ...

Christmas

The play was awesome! First time seeing so many hands reaching out for salvation all around me. Wow! Ok it was like WOW! Presence of God was just strong. Wow!

It was nice to accompany someone to Christ. Mm i like it =) Guess thats how it ought to feel when Melo first accompanied me. Heh. Nice, v nice. Christmas is all about spreading joy, what other joy can be eternal?

And yes, so many things happened this week. Lord I am still learning more every passing day how to hear more from you and walk closer to your footsteps. Can you imagine someone tapping on your shoulder 3 times before you decide to respond? That was me. Still i responded so yea =)) Thank God for what you showed me today as well. After Christmas Celeb, went down to June's cm patient for a christmas celeb. Did not really prepare for it but was sure if God called... 3 times... it will just happen as he planned. 3 times... nuts i ought to be more sensitive. Yes it did. The family was amazing. 3 generations can you believe it? All coming to celebrate christmas. And yes, it wasnt some like small event get together and small talk... oh ho... they were SOO CLOSE to each other. The kids was obedient to all the adults and the parents were so full of love for their dear mother. You see model families all over tv... haha those are for a while... but this.. wow... Wow okay!!!

Wow. I have never seen a family as close as this. And yes, it was just my pleasure to bring the touch of magic to them. Father you convicted me of praying everyday for 1 thing for 6 months since yesterday, christmas eve, and yes you promised that if nothing happened, i would get 500 bucks haha. Lol but i know something is going to happen. It will. Lord take me as clay and mould me. Send me where you want me to go, for if 1 family can be touched in 1 day, 1 year has 365 days, even if its 10% of the days that you send me.. its still worth it.

Thanks for opening my eyes to see. Build us up that we can serve your kingdom.

Everyday for 6 months. For SCS. For ppl stricken with what is thought to be a terminal illness. Father make a miracle happen for all others.